Beauty Perception

Never use this semi-dress before.... like usual i bought online but i never wear it. But cz i feel now i lack of wardrobe , just use all the clothes that i never wear before. hahaha

Dunno what to write again... ohhh hmmm ok lets take a look on my nose.... i think my nose quite flat comparing with my sis and bro. hahaha when kiddo , my relatives were often mocking at me , that they thot i am not my parents real daughter, cz i have dark skin, fat, and my nose so flat. hahaha Sometimes i feel so down and reflect on my self. Am i really that ugly?? LOL.... but i never have thot to make nose job or sumthin to make me prettier...i will reveal my teenage looks when i have time to scan and post it in here.

but when the times goes by... i feel my metamorphosis turns a bit hmm quite okay... my nose grow a bit sharp... hahaha just a bit.. really a bit... haha that time i think because i had pimple a big ones on my nose..so i think the " leftover" of the pimple make a bit contribution on my flat nose to looks a bit sharp. but noted it just A BIT!! hahaha

But i knw... nowadays a lot of teenagers (female mostly) are daring to do nose job. i was also shock when know abt this facts. From the trusted source of information that i knw and she was also told me abt her plan to have nosejob... Nowadays.. among the teenagers this nose job issues are common things that they did for beauty. Beside the nose job the eyelids surgery was also common things for them especially for them who dunt have eyelids since they were born.

i am so glad that i have natural eyelids since i was kid and its real ones. even my left and right side the eyelids is diff, but still i have that eyelids. hehehe

My trusted source of information told that she decide to do this nose job because she feel that her nose is so gross , big , and ugly. Somemore she want to make herself prettier because she just had broken heart and its really make her so down and undirectly feel want to make the " EX" regret. So she thot to make herself preetier.

Her mom disagree with her decision. So she will " secretly" do this surgery with her father accompanion. In my opinion, actually she no need to take this surgery... she still so young still in phase of grow up. She is just 17 years old and her body and appreance still growing.

Despite of her decision, i knw its a bit dillematic decision. scared of the risk when post surgery and the result of the surgery. i just can advice her to think abt it again, it needs or not. and if she want to do this surgery dunt because she want to make her" Ex" regret of her.. and dunt because she feel that become outer beauty is so .. so much important to attract guys. i ADMIT that in the real world , ppl still judge a person by her or his looks, but if we make it closer to the person, knw the person not beauty as they thot( inner beauty) , ppl will can ignore them and perhaps they will told another ppl that that or this ger or guy is pretty but pity on them, they are so dumb and bimbotic kind of person. and in the end ppl will just take advantage on them.

So inner beauty still the most important than outer beauty. and if we already have an inner beauty dunt forget to upgrade our outer looks also. Where got ppl in this world like to see ugly and dirty person? hahaha nowhere.... so balanced it and u will find satisfaction of life.

Moreover if we want to upgrade our physical looks, plz be aware that we did this because our self happiness , not because of someone happiness.

i admit also i still struggling to loose weight till now! it was not because my bf ask me to do or anyone ask me to do, but i want for myself for my own satisfation and happiness ( to be slim is my dream that i hope it will came true.. haha just imagine that time when i was fat, very hard to find proper clothes and ppl will keep saying " fattie fattie.... " hahaha so iritating and annoying)

IF my bf happy abt my looks, just take it as a compliment and a BONUS, after i did a lot of effort to slim down . HAHAHA but i havent reached my goals... and haizzzz feel useless already... hahahha my diet will ruined if there a lot good food, especially my hometown food and i will thinking" THERE IS TOMORROW TO START ON DIET.." hahaha. yaaa... there will be a tmr.... lol


ps: hmm i knw what it feel likes when became fat girl.... i really knw... :(

Stay happy stay healthy and stay pretty:)