Hoping for thebest

Hmmmm

The result after meeting him and his fams went well... and out of my imagination. My scariest imagination. Why? Cz , i already prepared for the worst case, that if he will treating me like an enemy or maybe stranger and just passed the stuffs and said BYEBYE. hiks2

But , the result it went well, but why he said that why im dressing like that? Siao... i already prepared from 5 pm le... haha i knw why could be the reason. because at the past time,he always seen me wearing that shorts and just normal tops. hehe Ya.... i thot it will like so nice, if 1st impression i can make a good looks. He can memorize my looks wat>>> hehe or maybe because he surprisingly saw me so pretty and so classic? hahhaha and feel so attractive? haha i think that one sure NOPE!!! HAHA..

Overall he treated me well and FYI i think like we already together again but im also not sure. YA YA YA.. like usual i dunt want to expect for him too much. i scared later like the past time i will got hurt and stress again . I knw it is being hard to love someone so much.. and feel like couldn't find another love even we want to try it. but for me it is just so hard.... or maybe cz we had already been togEther almost 6years then it is already usual? hmm that time i feel like that but after i re-think and think again, it is mostly cz i find the true love. Even sometime we already meet another person and try to move-on and try The new experience, but it still cannt. maybe it is just a temporary feeling.

And talking about temporary feeling, i actually dunt have any of clue of that " Girl" and my Ex . hmmm still dunt knw yet. She replied my email and said that she couldn't wait any longer to talk with me. and want to make everything clear. Hmmm i dunt knw if i can handle or not. i just feel dunt want to hear anything from her, and if me and MR. M really become together again , i think we will forget our past nasty, bad, sad, and emotional relationship and make it more have quality of love, caring and understanding, ( i wonder when it would be happen, hehe) if Mr M read my blog, u should thinking also about this k?

These 2 days, i think already include the unexpected moments for my whole life time ever. Why? because, i wonder why we can act like normally and feels like we already together again. Somehow , i also wondered that it is real? or he just act it? i hope it is real. I THINK IT IS REAL, cz been together almost 6 years , make me know about him, more then everyone i think. Even he is the complicated and individual personality but i knw, deep inside his heart , feeling and emotion, he need this kind of love and caring. I dunt knw if he really like taht or not, but in my point of view it is YES. I think it is real, cz where got person who already break up with his gf and when meet his ex gf can suddenly treat so well. Why i can say this, because few months ago, i was daring to go to Mlaysia, to find him and want the explanation. but i feel that time ( maybe because he busy and stress out about his final project for grad) he treat me like im not there, and even like we had space on each other.

He must go back to Malaysia by today, cz tmr he will be working and dunt want to absent ( he is new employees) . so i send him to the airport and... like gf and bf usually do when send his or her lover to the airport( feel of distance will come ) we hugging each other and like normally also, because im so sensitive and emo-ing... i cried laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

he said he will call me or text me back, after he reached. But like usualllll DONT HOPE TOO MUCH TINE!!! haha ya ya ya i knw dunt hope too much... just hope for the worst and when it is not worst , just think that this is a MIRACLE hahha ( actually i dunt knw what is the connection) haha after send him back i went back to meet his parents again and we all together went back to the hotel and rest a while.

Message for today:

Hoping for The Best but Do Not Hoping so Much! or in the end it is just Hurts More and More and Never be Cure Forever and Ever...
( but i think i will still hoping that everything will come true and make me happy, like hear a song from heaven and like a kiddos have their good marks on the exam. haha such a good comparison. haha even it is sound not connected but i think he will understand.)

ps: If u read this blog hun, make sure u text me ok? i mean sms me....ok? OYASUMINASAI

Waiting and Waiting

I know that i shouldn't hoping so much about this dinner or anything about Mr M. hmmm i dunt know it is still on or not the dinner. Now, i just hoping and waiting.... i prepared already. preparing for the appearance and my emotion as well.Preparing for the worst case if all the planning will never happen. i dunt know what will happen with me.. i think i will so emoing and go drinking in the end Whether go out or just drink at home.Hiks i hope it will never happen.. This drinking method sumtimes is works to release my emotion when i sad. i knw it is not good but as long i avoid all these kind of weird things.

Yap! i already prepare since hmm i think about 5 pm... i scared later suddenly his sis phone me , then i dunt have time to prepare. hehe i already prepared what i will be wearing also, though i will put on again my tee and waiting for the confirmation. huaaa so sad ya? but no choice... i still have this huge hopes from him.

Hua.... i dunt knw wat to said. but that girl email me . and said sorry for everything. huh? for waht?? for whats she said sorry NOW!!!!! not that time, when she distracting my relation ship with my bf. i dunt understand.why must now! after break my relationship with him. or maybe cz today is HARI RAYA so she said sorry for everything?

i already replied her email that it is true i havent approve her msn, cz i'm considering her relationship with Mr M,. i knw if Mr.M know abt this, i think she will get scold. hahaha Overall i just toldthat, if she want my ex ,Mr M. just take it.... i will happy as long he happy. and i will not annoy their relation ship, like that time she did for me.

Huaaaaaaaaaaa so stresssssi think i will go drink.......

MrM coming to town

hua... Im so happy.. cz knw that this Mr. M is here in Spore and with his fams also. hehe I already dunt want to think about our past relationships that had beed almost six years ( during that past six years im so fat.... haha) . The one that i want to think is NOW! I WILL MEETING HIM... cz his father asked me to have dinner with them TONIGHT... hehe i feel so glad and appreciate it so much. :)

Last night , he text me told that the stuff that i order from MALAYSIA through my friend , he will just ask his sis to give it for me. I think i knw why he dunt want to meet me, i think cz he scared taht he will fall in love again with me, or maybe will be missing me. haha NONSENSE LHA..where got???

then i reply his message " u not feel it is awkward, if u dunt want to meet me and only ask ur sis to give it for me. It is not polite. but if u still want to ask ur sis to give it to me, its ok.. no worries..So, just ask ur sis to give it for me lha"

then he reply" Sure no worries , if u want like taht. if have time, sure i will meeting u"

me: " ok then , tell me tmr then."

him:" just reached hotel, and it is raining, damn hard!!! probably will go find some food "

me :" if u want downstairs in my place have kind of fish soup , open till late or u want i deliver the keteupat sayur, i just make it" ( Actually i'm also think that it is impossible lha, outside raining so hard, how i can deliver the food, so mafan also. haha but for him no worries haha)

him:" no need lha...and maybe tmr will go out with u and all( family) , haha"

Wow! i just feel so happy...haha so i begin to think what clothes taht should i wear. How the reaction when i meet him and his parents. haha so funny rite? but really i really excited. hehe

him a.k.a Mr M: " Christine, u there? are u awake?"

me: " Yap, why ya?"

him : Why ur voice so different?"

me ( half awake actually but pretend that i'm fullya awake): " ya... maybe because u already seldom and never hear my voice, so thats why u feel my voice so diff"

him" oh okok"

Then suddenlyyyyyy i heard my mobile ringtone which is from ARASHI japanesse group.. so loud.... huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa my friend called me from ausiie.... and i just realize....... thats all onlyyyyyyyyy dreammmm HUH!!! dream! dream! and dream!

last night i suddenly called my bff to told that the girl who took Mr. M from me shockingly add me in MSN. Walauuuu SO BRAVE HUH.... SHE... but i havent approve. i scared le. dunt knw why... actually i dunt knw whether they togEther or not... but i think most likely. I wonder why she add me in msn.

the one reason that i can think is because maybe she knws that Mr. M is coming to Spore, and maybe she scared i will took him again... WTF!!! if that is true... I'm really salut... applause to her, that already being so psychotic and freaky abt him, until have that kind of horrifying thought! No lha.. i will not took him babe... if it is urs and iT is urs.. but it will be different if he the one who fallen for me. haha

PS FOR THAT GIRL(if he read my blog) haha: if u love him , keep it him carefully and take care of him k?thx yo..:)

i think if i'm that girl, i will not dare to add his Ex IN MSN OR EVEN FB.

Ok lets continue again... after had a called from my BFF , i have new text from his sister that want to come here delivery my stuff. Oh SHIT!!! tHEN i feel so down lha, cz i think that maybe i will not meeting him and his fams. HIKS!

So i just waiting for her to come to my place. During that time, i was try to continue my sleep.

his sis: " Hi ntine. my bro said that he want to go clubbing.... to MOS. "

me: " huh? he? want to clubbing? really ya"

his sis:" Yap! he want to try to go club in here"

me:" Ok lo, which club he want to go? Mos at clarkQuay so i think ww will can find other place too>"

his sis:" ok then cya... oh ya... im reaching soon to ur place..."(hang up the phone)

she reached my place

his sis:" Hi ntine.."

me:" hi... sorry ya.. so messy around here...."

his sis:" no worries...( then suddenly i saw him come also, hua.. so happy lha me)btw, what is that? near ur cheeks... ermmmm sumthin like NOSE SHIT? ")

ME:" huh? where got( i try to pretend like usual,with trying to find the shit. so paiseh! somemore he was there)

then we went togther with his sis, and his parents. i wonder why he still hang his arms around me, and hold myhand. even the parents look at me with weird looks. they knw that we broke up already, but why still like together.and i was shocked that why they went to spore and have car. big huge white or silver car. like Hyundai family car. Somemore his father nagging him that he spent a lot of fuel with the car... haha so weird.....

Andddddd it is like usualllllllll.. it is just only A DREAM,aNOther dream...... hahahhaha so crazy lha me.... always have weird dream. according to Pscychologicalcourse taht i took, im in the REM stage ( Rapid Eye Movement) which is not sleep well cz have a certain kind of thot.hehe

okok...now it is reallly real... his sis reached my place. Wow... Mr. M mum bought me fish.. from indo, my fav australian corn snacks and also home made macaroni schotel ( her mum signature dish) that i seldom to eat( i only take half cz i scared i will loose control.. and spoilt my diet plan haha cz i knw it will be so nice).

Then his sis told me that the father asked me to have dinner with them. that i certainly said YES!!! another chat with his sis, is that his parents asking abt whether i already have new bf or not, why we broke up, and all why and what happened. So poor thing lha for his sis.... must try to answer this kind of question taht MR. x also avoid to answer.

After heat up all the dish that will took back to the hotel...( yes, his sis, ask me for help to heat up the pau and macaroni for them to have for breakfast) i'm preparing to how to face them, and also preparing for all the things. like i said clothes, hair etc. i think i will wear skirt. cz Mr. M seldom saw me in skirt, and as i remeber he like it. hahahhaha

Soooooo lets see today.. what will happennn

still need improvment!

huraary, i created banner for my blog... haha i knw it is still amatir and far from perfection, but i'm happy. haha i will try to create the better one than this if i have time.hhhahahha ya...IF I HAVE TIME.. haha actually it is just depend on my mood for example such as lazyness and boringness ( hahaha wat kind of word that BORINGNESS) I think should be BOREDNESS. hehe sumtimes i have this feeling when want to start to blogging. hehe i feel that my writing skills also far from perfectness.

Sometimes, i wondered that how they ( the bloggers) can create such a topic to make the blog interesting. haha a lot of thumbs for them. Majoring on Mass comm AND JOURNALISM for concentration not make me improve my writing skills. Actually i have a lot of things to write, but why it is just a lot of things that distract me taht make me blank and kinda blur if want to start to write.

I think i need self- improvement for my writing skills. Maybe next time my blog should be the story of kind of friendship, relationship, or a topic taht i can write and it will looks like an essay. hahaha

Talking about self improvement.. yap! i need taht,. i need self improvement to make myself better. i will start with....

1. Learning and improve my English, Chinesse, and also German and Japan. huaa... i'm palnning to go Japan next year.. if i have money loooooo haha

2. i will try to get up early every morning and start JOGGING. hua.... how could it be.. i think is impossible... hahaha..i think i will not start JOGGING but CLUBBING. hahaha joking lhaaaa


3. start to learn more about this IT things... haha i knw i'm not good enuf in this kind of cyber world but i want to learn it. i will borrow some books about IT. Books that can improve my knowledge about IT and creativeness such as Adobe,flash,image reader, hua.. wat else ya.. i dunt knw..

4.is self improvement including how to get BODYLICIOUS? HAHAHa i've kind inspired of this girl in Samurai Girl, the body it is just so perfect. but i think she need to remove the fake lashes.. cz it is unsuitable for her. haha Yap! i will start on dieting just need 5 kg to loose. haha i think from the 1st few post i already mention to get on diet, but until nw it did'nt happen. haha Why? i also dunt knw... huaaaa so stressss

http://abcfamily.go.com/abcfamily/path/section_Specials+Samurai-Girl/page_Detail

5. i need self improvement by maintain my financial problem. haha Actually i'm far for the problem, but because, everytime my brother ask me for money ( 100, 200, 50 100)huh!, make my saving decrease. hiks2 thats why i need jobbbbbb ! yap! anyone wantto offering me part time job, i will do it... as long the pay and the jobs desk suitable for me. haha I WANT A PART TIME JOB OR PERM PART TIME JOB!!!! :)

There are kind of self improvement that i want to increase.... hope i can do it! YEAH.. IT MUST!!!! hmmm i'm also try to setting a blogshop but it is not so easy as i think... huhuhuhuhu but i will never give up!!!! and my blogshop coming soon... hahahha Hope the readers ( haha hope there are a lot of readers of my silly blog)will interested of me. I'm thingking to pre-order clothes from Taiwan, Authentic Longchamp bag, Authentic Hermes bag and lacoste woman and men polo tee. anyone interested? email me ok?? or leave a comment in here...

THX THX THX FOR READing MY SELF IMPROVEMENT POSTING AND HOPE U ALL HAPPY EVERYDAY , HAVE A BIG BRIGHT SMILE iN UR DAYS AND LIFES AND OF COURSE.. WILL INTERESTED WITH MY COMING SOON ONLINE SHOP! HAHA

Fattening exam

Im so bored and stress due Exam ...

SEE... HOW DILIGENT I AM

MASS COMMUNICATION ( Journalism and broadcasting concentration)but still must study this Psychology.... hahaha it is quite related though....

sO HARD TO MEMORIZE...

WHAT IS THISSSSSSS???

i.m GET fAT BY ONE NIGHT IT IS 3.22 AM

and still blogging while exam will begin on this few hours ...

Waxing!!!!OMG

went to ministry of wax.. with Priska. YEP!!!! I DID IT! oh OMG.... so painfulllll but nw so smoothy like baby.... i will not tell which part i did it.... but i think its easy to knw.. hahahhahahahhahahahaah this post is R21 above... so leave it if u underage! hahahahaha

Priska is the one who asked me to do THIS!!!! Actually, i already want to do this so longgggg ago, but feel so scared. How abt if bleeding, the skin peeled off, the flesh come out.. etc etc.. but the result is.. so GOOD.. nw im smooth like a BABY.. thats is the 4 words that everytime Priska will say it and make me confident to do it.

ntine: im so scared... alreadydunt have energy le... even im only hear the word" waxing"

Priska: dunt worry tintonnnnn... later after waxing, ur skin will be as smooth as a baby...

ntine: huh???

the result is really so smooth but the skin like chiCken skin.. hahaha that havent cooked haha.. ya ya ya .. i knw looks so grosssss and disgusting... hahhaha

the person who did my wax, also was kind and keep chatting with me to take my attention from the pain.. but still yet i was feel the pain and shockness.. haha

BUT NW.. I'M HAPPY i'm so cleannnn AND healthy....no more MONGKEY OR GORILLA....( if u knw wat i mean.. priska and lina knw wat i mean... sssttt if priska, lina and me walk together... nw looks like priska and me, walk with mongkey... hahahhahaha:))

oh nooo my exam coming soon.. need to study liao, cannt playing around... haha and i will buy snacks for study. OH.. this is why i will getting fatter during exammination weeks. haha

i just love this drink so much.. smell nice, and also so refresh...

i must take this coffee tmr for study.... i cannt take other coffee except this. i will still sleepy if drink other brands. but this BOSS coffee can makeme stay awake till mornin. haha

i like the cheese cheddar.. this is a must snack for me... hahaha if im on dieting can i still eat this ones? for breakfast luch and dinner? hahhahahhahhahahaha SIAO

Bengkyo Shimasu.......:)

1st ladies nite...

Ladies niTe with my ladies last Wed. Its my 1st Ladies nite... and Actually noni was planning to go DblO but due to her age 19 she couldn't go in.. hehe so paiseh le.. nvm.. next time k? dunt worry Noni.... sO IN THE end we moved to Arena and Attica... and the crowd there was not so crowded... just nice only..... wonder if weekend how the crowd will be... :)

Let's Have fun Girls...

These ladies just wanna have fun...

SHopping day....

From the title its shows that i was shopping a lot. hahaha but actually nope. i just help my mum buy her stuff to bring back to jakarta. Yap, my sis will going back to Jkt this 25th Sept. i'm feel jelaous cz i cant go back to my home town. oh yes.. i want to going back Indon, refreshing and relax there.. having massage and scrubbing.. hua... so nice rite.... haha

i help my mum bought her stuff yesterday.. all is shiseido skincare... after went to Robinson at raffles city, and find their shiseido gift not nice and not worth it... then i went to Vivo city Tangs to bought the stuff there. Yep! i already spyed , the gift there more worth it than robinson.... hahaha so i just purchase the brightening serum that cost so expensive... abt S$158 and my eye cream... yap! my mum promised me to buy for me this ones, due to my dark cirle eyes that already so GROSSSSSS.. and make me looks like Zombie.....

im holding two membership shiseido card so make me ask to have both of the gift... haha the clutch with brightening skincare product and the big canvas bag with anti aging product that suitable for my mum . haha actually i prefer the bigbag than the clutch, but i choose the clutch also because they also provide the my skincare gift, so i also take the clutch gift set, even its only the sample but its quite big . The clutch gift set is my brightening skincare product( i dunt want to buy the skincare product like soap, toner, and day moistruizer because everytime they will give it.. so i can save my money.. hahaha )

my new eye cream , subtitute my avene eye cream hoho....creamy but so light in the eyes area..

my skincare..... love this product only can afford when my mum here.. so i just use the gift sample... hahaha but at least i have the soap. haha

this one damn expensive sia.... but really worth it... this serum really good...contain of vitamin c . U can feel ur face so alive and bright, somemore it reduce dark spot . i think next time i will buy it, when my money enough.... haha

Somemoreeeee, all the things that i bought i can claim the tax refund.. haha so nice isn't it? i will ask my sis to take the refund .. haha the total refund i can claim from Tangs abt 20 bucks ( shiseido skincare, sandals from my mum, and MAC lipstick for me hahaha my 1st lipstick haha b4 that i just use balm.)

the gift set ... haha see how big the gift sample.. hahaha thats why i always use it and only help my mum buy her skincare if the gift set have thr brightening set. haha

oh iyaaaaaaa i have my new Mouse... Targus.. its damn nice and so comfortable... its looks like mini bread.. haha and really convinience.. haha i bought branded mouse because... i feel that if buy no name brand name it will easier to spoil.. so i just try this TARGUS and goodbye RANGER...( yes.. my ranger mouse spoil, the cable i think spoil, because everytime i plug the mouse , the mouse cannt work. it will work if i hold up the cable... haha so irritating ) haha this mouse its not small and not so big.. its match with me cz my finger is fat finger.. so i think quite convinient for me. haha ACtually i dunt knw if Targus mouse nice or not, because i think im only knw that targus is the brand name for the laptop bag.. haha so just hope this mouse will become friend with me.... haha WELCOME HOME BABY MOUSE... HAHA

my olShop:)

Im trying to set online shop so far... so if anyone interesting of my stuff, just email me at Prabowo.Christine@gmail.com or leave a comment here

thx:)

ps: It is brand new and i'm only have limited piece so hurry and grab it..

s101.Fabric: Cotton Bust 78cm, Length 66cm

s$18

s102 Fabric: Cotton Length 51cm, Bust 84cm w/ Straps

s$18

S103 Fabric: Cotton Length 61cm, Shoulder 33cm, Sleeves 12cm, Bust 82cm suitable for petite size

s$ 20

S0104 Fabric: 120D Fine Chiffon Outer: Length 80cm, Shoulder 39cm, Sleeves 20cm, Bust 80-92cm Inner: Length 50cm, Bust 80-92cm 2 in 1 Set w/ Belts, Straps, and Interlining

S$ 25

UPDATED1

OH noooo.. so long never blogging ... haha this one is related due to my activities so far. haha.... Many things happens actually, but yet i still lazy to blog in it. haha... just try to recall all the things then....

My brother Graduation day from NAFA

Family

Do we look a like? haha i think nope...

wow.. why my mum looks KEPO .... even want to take picture, she still talking and looking to someone. haha dunno who.... kepo lha she...

OMG.. why my mum.. act cute in this pic... siao.... but i think this one her best pics so far...haha not looks old..

Actually we were not allowed to take pics inside the hall... but i secretly take this pics.;..and turns quite nice... i tried to focus the lens before they called my bro to go up, and when he go up "click" i took his best shoot!!! haha... i knw why we cannt take the pics inside. It is because, they also hired the photographer to take this pics and in the end they will sell it... haha smart...

to be continued....

Mooncake festival at Takashimaya