to Love, to Forgive and to Forget

love is somethin that sometimes sound so real, happy and everything is just so unbelievable. when u feel love means that u already reached certain kind of relationship levels.

For me, love is just not so easy like so easy when i said and told someone that i love him. Perhaps, it was just a safe word to let him know that i love someone so much. But when i feel that i really love someone, i will feel so down and drop into the level of sadness that can make mood so irritating. cannt feel my appetite, even close my eyes, to relax myself from the stressfulness, i couldn't do that. MEANS.. i really love this person.

So far, from my last relationship before, i dunno why for now.. i just feel a bit insecure, feel so afraid of lost this person. i just scared that this person will leave me .... maybe now i really feel in love after few years back.... my process of loving someone sounds so sucks and now really came true and turn so fast and i got this feeling that i couldn't explain

yeah... Love is so complicated.. no wonder a lot of ppl in this world craving for love but also, some of them dunt want to be in love. Why? because love is so complicated and if u are not ready to feel the hurt and pain , u better stay away from love.

Love is like our daily meal. Everyone need love to each other ...but love between man and woman is the most complicated . It needs two person in the relationship to sail the boat... to fly the plane ( hmm i think now have AUTOPILOT.. lol), to drive the car( OK THIS NONSENCE haha), not just like one person who in charge of everything and one of them is the worker.

Understanding and trust is the precious things in "love". How u can love the person unconditionally if u ar not understand each other? Trust.. trust is also important. We can maintain our relationship by trust each other. If u already consistent and sure that u love someone so much... u must trust him or her. Because the person that u trust is ur soulmate. U knw him or her better than the others and the important is this is ur bf /gf . So if u think u really in love with ur bf/ gf better to TRUST and believe that he or she will never try to hurt ur feeling.

Forgive and Forget of what he or she did and take it for your lesson to make this ship stronger and stronger. This is the path of our life.. no matter what we have been hurt by someone just try to forgive and forget.

Maybe it sounds so easy to forgive and forget, but the fact perhaps it need time to think, then to decide to forgive and forget.

Just think for ourself... for our benefits of life. We are just live once at a time, dunt make "enemies". Think that we will change for the sake of someone that we love , someone that we really care and the most important is we want to change to become a better person .

Think that what we have been through is the process of of life and it is the meaning to live in this world.

The pain is just the starter to achieve the greatest amount of happiness.

i'm sorry

I know there's really nothin left to say.just know i'm here wherever u need me. and i will wait for u.

take ur time i won't go anywhere, i will be there for u and i hope u find everything u need.
and i will be here waiting to see, u find urself to come back to me.

i will wait for u, cz i dunno what else i can do.
Dont tell me i ran out of time, if it takes the rest of my life.
if u thinkin i am fine, it just not true. i really NEED U in my life. no matter what i have to do.


forgive me, of what i did to u.
promise that i will never hurt ur feeling
I LOVE U
this is my promise ti u that i make for u tonite..

I MISS U

Gift for him

i was remember when he said... " hmm i also have Braun buffel wallet..... but bought at Mangga dua( one of the popular shopping center for fashion in Jakarta) ..." i replied" huahahahahahha.."

I KNW ITS FAKE ones.. lol

FYI... i am typical person who noticed about everything that for me important and from that info i can create few little suprises. example when that time he said.. arhh... i want to drink coke..... then in the mornin i bought two cans of Coke... and suddenly i delivered to him when he woke up... hahahaha and he shockkk by saying.." alamakkkk ckckckckckckc hahahaha" ( but i knw deep inside his heart he is happy happy happy happyyyy)

ok back to the gift stuff... so.. when i back to SG a while a bout a week i manage to get the new wallet from him. the happiest things were that wallet is so worth it.... WHY? because i got 40 bucks of voucher of Braun buffel because i bought bag for my aunt... huaaa so lucky.. and somemore that voucher only can use at the men's side.... and the voucher can use for the sale item also... hahahahhaha so the price is from 139 bucks.. after discount is 90 bucks... with voucer.. become...50 bucks only.... wohooooooo so i just top up s$50 its about IDR350.000. and when i check in Jakarta the price was... IDR 2.000.000 its about 250 bucks... hahahahha so worth it!!!!




actually i was thinking to just buy the new arrival item.. cz i like the skin leather of the wallet but i dunt like the design... then i saw the sale item... i like the design but only got the dark brown colour. Three days i went to the shopping center.. to just take a look... see really carefully..( hmm i think the sales ger thot that i was only windows shopping only.... SO SORRRY...... to choose this wallet is so important! cannt anyhow choose... bcz i knw my bf is not typical who keep change stuffs and not fashionable... so i must get the item that will long lasting ones and of course with a good quality soooo better i just buy the original for my lovely darlin.)

so tadaaahhhhhhhhh i choose this one..... i choose this one... because it have coin pocket.wohoooo....i knw he was told me that his wallet dunt have to put coins.....( becareful on what u said darlinnnnn hohohohohohoho my ears is so biggg and i can sort a lot of information and i will keep it in my memory....haha)






these few days back i was trying to escape from my darlin... cz i want to print our pic. to put in his wallet .. but always unsuccessful. Haizzz.. but one day i was managed to print the pic.. wohoooooo
ok.. so my plan to give this gift was.....

when go out with him, ask him to put the his wallet on my bag( ya as usual , everytime he will put the wallet on my bag.. and when it seems heavy he will carry my bag .... hahaha looks a bit not nice and paiseh actually for him to carry my bag.. but i think he like it and want it... FYI when our 2nd dating which was second day we meet each other with a BUNCH of his frens.. he seems not shy to carry my bag..i wasn't ask him to carry but he volunteered and his frens keep annoying us by saying" AW AW AW AW" hahaha . hmmm it was not bcz he carried my bag and i fallen for him ya.... i was just think that hmm maybe this is a TRICK TRICK TRICK.... to get my heart... hahaha but nope.....cannt please me with those kind of TRICK... hahaha

haha i just realize... i was mention " when go out with him, ask him to put the his wallet on my bag." but the paragraph was so long. hahaha .. ok so i ask him to put his wallet on my bag.. but already 2 days i try.... and not managed. hahaha the 3rd day.. when i send him to work together with his frens.. i was thinking to out the wallet on his bag... but i think cannt cz so obvious... then i was thinking to ask one of his fren to get my gift from the back pocket of my car and ask him to keep it and when they on break time... his fren will give the wallet to him and i think he will " aw aw aw aw aw" HAHAHA

but i think ... haizzzzz.... dunt want lha dunt want troubling his fren.... hehe

sooooooo..... on TUESDAY i think ....we watched a movie.... STAR TREK.. i knw i knw it was old movie.... but...both of us havent watch it... hehehe sooo before the movie start i ask him to put his wallet on my bag... and YESSSSSS.......he put it on my bag.. then i went to the toilet b4 the movie also .... and inside the toilet.. i change to the new wallet.. all his money , cards... i put in the new wallet.... i saw few ppl saw me... hahaha maybe they thot i want to rob the wallet. hahaha

ok so its done... i managed to exchange his old wallet to the new wallet... WOHOOOOO......

end of the movie.. we went around with no destination... and i told him i want pearly milk tea..... and he was in the rush drive his car to one of shopping center... but unlucky me.... it was closed already... so when we walk to the parking lot.. i asked him ," where u put ur wallet....." the he said " in ur bag rite??"..." really ?? u checked 1st lha.... is there or not" i replied.

then he checked my bag.. and the face suddenly in pale.. cz he never found his wallet... he thot he really lost it..OMGGGGG DARLIN?? WHY U SO SLOW!!!! hahaha then when he take a look again... he give me weird looks.. and take a look inside my bag again.. and smile at me.. and give me big laugh.... hahahhaha and i saw him i was also laughing... hahahaha i feel like so stupid.... so do him. hahaha

we were keep laughing.... i dunno why i keep laughing also... and he smiled calmly... and said " thank you... AWAWAWAW" hahaha

then when i asked him why he was laughing...he told me, that he was laughing because he was SPEECHLESS of my surpise again... hahaha

ps: i was so shock when he take a pic of the wallet and upload in his fb account... and become his profile pic.... LOL

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Was excited to make my own emoticon for msn.
okay.. i have new activities.. and i really THANKS GOD!!! there is youtube.. hahaha i can learn by doing .... now i am learning to use adobe image ready for make my emoticon.. and other is editing pics to vintage style from adobe photoshop. hahaha

LOL

AmonthWithU

A month with U... was so unbelievable....

i got my present from Prince.. wohoooo it was so cute...
Actually our dating for our 1st aniv was so normal... and somemore we were not spend together only but with our frens.. our old school frens.
Watched TRANSFORMER 2 ... the movie was awesome... but poor thing for me , i never watch the 1st ones. but no worries i have the dvd so i will watch it ...soon...

Back from the cinema..... inside the car suddenly darling ask me dunt go out 1st... and tadaaahhh he gave me this HELLO KITTY MUG.... which is so cute....

the actual day.. i gave him a little suprise...... when we went out i was thinking on how to put my letter on her wallet, but i was failed! no chance at all. in the end i just put in the coin drawer in his car... and i was also told my fren who also watched the movie, that i will pay his tix.. so my fren no need to ask from him. ( i heard from prince.. when he told want to pay... his fren told no need... and with all the jokes.. in the end he told prince that i was the one who pay. haha ( its my TREAT darlingggg) then when 12 am on that day.. i was also give my pic with " aniv" greetings... hahahaha i think HE got my little suprise.. hahaha LOVE YA....

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i love u darling...

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camwhoring... oh ya.. i just have a new toys in my adobe photoshop applications.. which is create a vintage looks on a photo... wohhoooo it was so much fun!!!

hmmm there are still a lot a lot of pic and story that i want to share.. but no time and so lazy.. haizzz but i try to post more often... hahahaha

The more i knw U the More i love U and adore U

i love u

1stmonth<3

RIP my dearest Grandma....

RIP DEAREST GRANDMA


i just lost my grandma on last Saturday.. after watched so many drama on hospital... in the end my grandma was also cannt survive. Luckly, i got see my grandma before i went to spore for a week in hospital and before that my grandma was still ok and sleepover at my place. Its about a month ago ( that time i think i was just back to Jakarta to get knw more abt my darling. sorry for her, cz i cant intro my bf that time, cz that time my bf and i still fren . But i still remember she was keep asking me:" why u not introduce ur bf to me..." then i replied:" no lhaa.. havent my bf yett Ahmaa.. just fren only....next time when become my bf then i intro to u ok?? ")
hmmm what i can say ya?? it was all just so sudden.. i knw my grandma was so strong and have a spirit to live so much... but i think its her time now and hope she will rest in peace...and not to worry abt all the matters in the world .



WITH SOME OF HER GRANDCHILDREN

YUP WE ARE BIG FAMILY....I THINK ALL ABOT 44 GRANDCHILDREN?

okay.. this pics actually only taken abt a month ago.. haizzzz.. really unexpected that now.. my grandma is not here.. hmmmmm we will miss her.. miss her when she nagged us, miss her when she was scolding us... will miss everything about her...
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my mum asked to put a mask when we were going to hospital to see my grandma...(that time my grandma was still alive but in serious condition) i feel like so exclusive wore this kind on maskkk... i felt weird. when reached hospital.. i just removed this mask, cz many ppl stared on us.. i got feel they will have thought that my mom and me have some flu or illness.. haha but my mum insist to wear her mask. haha

wohooooooooooooo i got my new student pass card.... it is a replacement cz i lost my card at the Phuture that time. lol.... i was so suprised when i got it.. it looks like Singapore IC. hahaha if i knw, now they will made like this... i will prepare to go to ICA, and will took a nice pose for my ic. haizzz.. how i knw if now it will be like this, i thot it will be like a normal card.. 2 cards... without pic....

how horrible my ic pic... like want to go facial.. huahahahahaha... but i was so glad the officer can make my ic so fast.....not 2 weeks but a bt a week only.. ( u seee horr darling.. my effort to meet u... haha till i did interview for my ic.. so i can get my ic so fast!!!! wohooo)

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Yap , i back to my hometown Jakarta.... just feel so nice back to my hometown... somemore i have my prince here.. miss him so much...... somemore there are a lot of agenda that i will do in my hometown.. but most of them of course "HONEYMOON" with prince... lol... haha and will have SOUR SALLY FROZEN YOGURT... i will update about this yogurt next time... i got a lot of the pic abt this new food... its healthy food, its YOGURT but is like icecream and have toppings... ( will update soon)

Another sushi... with my best fren .... wohoo.. just nice to meet them.
hahaha i just like to eat sushi in HATCHI SUSHI AT TAMAN ANGGREK MALL JAKARTA..... its worth of money.. and its not so expensive. one plate like this.. i forgot what it called.. i think salmost twist and other is dragon roll.. each of them cost abot 35-38 IDR.. it is about S$ 5-6 bucks only.. huaaa so cheap cheap cheap

THE BEAUTIES




I dunno why we loved to take pics in front of the mirror... wherewever got mirror confirm we will take photos.. lol


my bff back to town.....

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Prince and his bff... CHOYYY ACHOYYYY LOL
( ACHOY actually also schooling in Spore same as me..but we seldom meet each other... i think after this we will hang out together more often... and i think there will be SOMETHIN""" about achoy... soon... hahaha HAPPY TO HEAR THAT!!!! GANBATTEEEE!!!!!)

dr. Bonita Effendi, Sp???? plz take Gynaecology ok?
so i can check my private area with u.. huahahhaa
hmmmmmmmmmmmm

this is Prince
lol....... like to pose like that.....
haha love uuuuu muachmuachmuach...

my sis graduation

My sis hmm graduation Project??
hahaha

i was so late.. but nvm lha... hahahhaha
just catched up during dinner time.. lol

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This is what we do every nite... hahahahha WEBCAM-ing.. hahahhahaa so we feel we are not so far.... hahaha
LONG DISTANCE IS HARD but WE TRY TO MAKE IT WORKS!!!

CZ I <3>

We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.

- Sam Keen, from To Love and Be Loved