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HELLO... WELCOMIN BACK TO ME... TO MY BLOG... LOL:
i try not to be lazy for now.... I HOPE SO... BUT SEE HOW...:p

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my BFF try to persuade me to continue blogging … but I dunno why those last hmm I think it was almost half year I never write anything. Actually, I already want to start to continue to write my blog but I just lazy to type. and here is tadaaaahhhhh my new post for march 2010. haha
A lot of things happened in my life, there is someone go someone come, there is something old and turns to be brand new and till there is some good and bad things happen in my life. What I learned from last year in general is the “ try to find my true happiness in my life” which turns quite bad ( oh yeah …. Last year I broke up twice WTF and I kinda feel all my effort was useless :( so no more crying for that creature called GUY! BOY! Or MAN!) and if I want to be more specific i try to be more matured in certain ways of relationship especially for my current bf now….and try to be more independent and keep busying with myself so im not really thinking of my relationship.

What I believe now is God created human being in such a beautiful ways and gifted. I knw human being is a social cannt live without each other and need accompanion but, we should understand and know that actually human being is alone. Just think when we were born, we born alone ( except twins I guessed) so we should be ready if we nobody beside us. For me I think I need to accept the condition that I always in the long distance relationship, I just dunno why , I kinda used to it. I knw its hard but I quite enjoy it, even sumtimes I can feel the loneliness but I still can take it. And for now my relationship is more in the serious stages( ok this i=one I just hope its really serious lol) , I, in the middle of my process to fully accept and love my BF, and I hope it works well. Hehe I just dunt want in the middle of my process to love somebody and accept the why who he is suddenly no wind no rain then break up.. I can really get pissed of it. ( okay.. FYI, I still cannt get over of sumthin.. not because the “ someone” but the things that ends up surprisingly shocking me till hmm not death but I think just like if went to emergency unit. Wkwkwkw)

Because im alone nt means that my bf not thinking about me( okay.. I just hoping he thinking about me.. haha ) . Sometimes I kinda feel is my bf really have that feeling for me or not? Is he missing me or not? Or is he ever kinda thinking about me? I m not sure about all those kind but im sure he will. He is so far away( Sydney and its 3 hours diff from Singapore) and I think he kind of routine guy. Haha I slightly knw when he will wake up, take lunch, dinner, off to campus or back from campus , what he is doing on his free time and till arnd 10 pm he will off to bed and will text me. I knw its kinda boring but I feel that soon or later if I decided to be with him it will be like that and I believe all guys is like that…. Will have their monotonous routines of life and we .. woman should be clever and try to seek of their attention but plz try to avoid all those noise and nonsense things or u will be end up with “ annoying gf ever “ to them.

Sometimes when guys already get us and get our heart they ar sumtimes forget to maintain the relationship. Woman is naturally want to be loved and care , in the other hand , the bf that already seems busy with their works or activities sometimes forget that his gf need a attention not only a STATUS that said” U AR MY GF”. I knw its kinda cheesy when we read shout on fb or kind of romantic story on web or blog or whatever it is and we ( woman) just hoping that we are the subject in that post… and even sometimes we can feel envy for those who have romantic times with their gf or bf. Hehe so for all the guys.. hei I tell u… treat ur gf carefully with tender and care, give them a lil praise and all thos nonsence sentence such as” u are the best ger I ever had”,” I think ur daddy is roberer cz he robbed my heart for u” “ I just want to stare at ur eyes, cz ur eyes as bright as the star”. “ do I need lock ur heart? Cz I scared to loose u….”

WOWWWW SOOOOO LOL…. So chezzzzyy.. haha but I like it! It can be spices for ur relationship to be more flowery and full of sparkles…. hihihi

For me for now… I just try to keep in mind that my bf is sayang and care for me, I knw he cannt show it of ( cz we in distance) for nw but I just hope soon… wahhh I think my post full of hoping and wish… haha yap!

Human being should have faith and hope for something so they can be more spirit full to face this cruelty world.