ambitious and disciplined; determined and dedicated to achieving my goals with hard work,practical and realistic, dependable and serious, never giving up on their goals,devoted In love relationships.
This is what we do every nite... hahahahha WEBCAM-ing.. hahahhahaa so we feel we are not so far.... hahaha LONG DISTANCE IS HARD but WE TRY TO MAKE IT WORKS!!!
CZ I <3>
We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.
ps for my ex if he read this post: sorry ya... if i talk all abt this... sorry , i just cannt take it anymore...
Early in the morning I put breakfast at your table And make sure that your coffee Has it's sugar and cream Your eggs are over easy Your toast done lightly All that's missing is your morning kiss That used to greet me
Now you say the juice is sour It used to be so sweet And I can't help but to wonder If you're talking 'bout me We don't talk the way we used to talk It's hurtin' so deep I've got my pride, I will not cry But it's makin' me weak
I'm not your superwoman I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down And think that everything's okay Boy, I am only human This girl needs more than occasional Hugs as a token of love from you to me, ooh, baby
I fought my way through the rush hour Trying to make it home just for you I want to make sure that your dinner Will be waiting for you But when you get there you just tell me You're not hungry at all You said you'd rather read the paper And you don't want to talk You like to think that I'm just crazy When I say that you changed I'm convinced I know the problem You don't love me the same You're just going through the motions And you're not being fair
I've got my pride, I will not cry Still I can't help but care I'm not your superwoman (Oh, no, no) I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down And think that everything's okay Boy, I am only human (I'm only human) This girl needs more than occasional Hugs as a token of love from you to me
Actually its should be a nice Saturday nite with Eranth and Fat.. and other frens also... but end up a bit zzzz, down, upset, and all the bad emotions that i felt on that Saturday nite. i dunno why my ex just make a big fuss and problem because i attend one of his fren birthday party. i was also not planning to stay there for long..... cz we have some other plan also. I just went there to put all the drinks that we brought for the party. i just couldn't understand why he acted like that. If i am the one who make mistake with our relationship, i am the one who should be leaving and shamed to see him and not him who the one who just leaving like that... and dunt care about his fren birthday party.
In the end, i am the one who feel not nice to the birthday boy. Undirectly i ruined their party. HAIZZ....... why arh... i cannt be fren with my ex fren huh? i think when he saw me, he feel like seeing " GHOST" ... hahahhaha somemore, i was in the different partion.. and confirm he couldn't see me.
Fat told me that my ex feel he got betrayed by me.... cz my ex thought that i loved him so much and why suddenly i move on so fast.... and have new bf and maybe he thot that i broke up with him because i got another guy... haiz... open ur mind... plzzz...... i am not that kind of person!!!!!!....
which gf will not upset if the bf cannt answer all the easy questions like
" do u miss me?" ------> " ermmm i dunno.. i AM NUMB rite now..." ( hmm what such a good answer) " so.. do u love me?"-----> " ermmmm i dunno... i cannt feel anything rite now..."( i think not only now.. but those few months... haizzz)
i knw he is busy and seems self centered person.. who cant be disturb... and i am also not asking for meet-up or wat... if he seems busy.. it was enuf for me to hear that he miss me and still loves me, even he busy. haizzz... that time , the worst thot that i had last time.. i was just looks like calling ger...
arhhhh ... even after broked up , he never seems to contact me or approached me... or take any action...so? must i waiting for him? waiting him for him to wave at me??huh? for how long? somemore he was also told me that he not the type of guy who can ask for patch up... so its useless for me rite...
my conclusion is... i move on or i am not move on.. i get wrong direction and decision...
but i am glad i MOVE ON... i will not repeat my mistake to wait for a guy.. that seems dunt care about me.. about my feelin..... i am just human.. a girll.... that need care and loves....and attention. For what had a bf in the same country.. even in this small country.. SINGAPORE.... but feel that so far far away...... and only think abt himself ....no use....in the end i am the one who also must take care of myself. haaaaaaa.. ok lha i dunt want to elaborate more.. i flashed back , i just feel pain... heart pain.
THANKS to ERANT again.... and Fat.... and Mizzi and hmm who else ya... Alvin...? Fai?? haha that already cheer me up .... oh ya.. in the end... Eranth , me and Wei jiang or Wei jing ha? went to KTV and Sing all OUT Loud... wohooooo..... it was my 1st time went KTV, quite fun.. and interesting.. somemore they have nice snacks. huahahahaha....when i sing SUPERWOMAN.. sudennly i feel weird.... then i was a bit stonning.. when the song almost finished, ERANTH looked at me and say ( next time if go out with Eranth i think make sure everything will be okay.... haha)
" wow.... this song.. hahaha why.. remind me of someone.. hahaha this is really true sia..... this is ur song christine.. hahaha"
hahahaha actually when i was sing in the middle of the song, i already feel that... i think i choose wrong song.. huahahahhahahha
haaaaa.. ok lha nvm.... its okay.... i dunt care what my ex think about me.. really dunt care... time will prove everything... and i will just cherrish all the memories bad and good times when with my ex. No matter what.. he had been there in my heart......
Now i just concentrate with my schooling , my LD bf... that i love so much and too much i think.... for now....hope he will not dissapointed me.. and our relationship is based on TRUST and LOVE. somemore i have another problem about my dad and his works... haizzzz.... and become the oldest child in my family.. i will try to cheer up my dad... cz
i love u Daddyyyyy
Father's day will coming... hua... must thinking on how celebrate it.... confirm my dad will dunt have any idea about this celebration.. even for his birthday which is the date same as me... he doesn't care.... and i am the one who always remind him abt it. hahahaha oh ya.. will thinking abt my bf daddy also... i dunnt have any idea............
Yap.. i am back to SG.... prince send me to the airport... hua.. so sad must leave him. i will miss all those time being together with him. Reached SG on Wed morning 12.30 am. huahahahha ya i purposely take the last flight. it was not only because it was cheap $ 35 only with value air, but also because that time i already waste my tiger airways ticket, because, my US visa was ready on Tuesday. so how i can go back Sg without my passport.
i miss u so much my prince.................
back to sg, Wed morning i went to campus to take care my student pass.. walauuuu i thot they settle it already but never... so i must went to the ICA to do all from the 1st. huaaaaaaaa and i must do interview cz i must go back indo again. so next Tuesday i can get my visa... wohooooooooooooo( the normal is 2 weeks after application.)
i make this visa so fast and urgent, not only because my family matter that i really want to tell about it.... but i feel so lazy to post it ( huaaa i am still HOTTTTTT hear my dad problem... pity him....but dunt worry daddy , ur ger is like XENA the warrior princess.. so u can count on me.... somemore my grandma in hospital and in serious condition. ) but also because i wil meet my PRINCE.. and will spend time with him .... and fren also. huaaaaaa
ps: i hope everyone know that i attached already.. and will accept me for what i am.. i like to have a lot of friend.... so my life will not so boring......
ps: i think i am look weird if show my teeth when smiling. hahahaha
After I got my interview done in US embassy… I was thinkin to go to prince campus. Hahaha but I scared get lost…hmm actually past few days I already thinkingto make this lil surprise fr him but I dunno wat. At nite, I chat with one of his best fren and asking aboutmy prince campus. Lucky me, his bestfren will also go there, cz he got do project. So I told his best fren to wait me at campus there.
Soooooo, after I finished settled my US visa( wohooo.. I got my US visa….. it was so horror inside the room… I dunno why the office questioning me a lot! Somemore I am a student and not staying in Jakarta, then for what he keep questioning me all those nonsence things….. the weird ones,, when they ask me that I can speak chineese for real or not. Wow….. I think I never state or write on the application before. They more questioning me, because my school is under OKLAHOMAUNIVERSITY… so they also like dunt understand am I schooling in Oklahoma or Singapore. I already can feel they will reject my application, and if yes I will so embarrass… why? Because…. They willl be a lot ppl stare at me.. Ya, apply US visa, is the most complicated and horror things….. 1st I am not belive it, but when my time to interview, and they questioning me a lot, I become scared. Why? Because…. In front of me.. they not really answer too many questions, and so fast. With me? So long… but thank you very much for their approval for my Visa. I am so appreciate it so much.)
Ok back to my plan to surprise my prince…
So I called my mum, ask her not to send driver to fetch me cz I will go find my bf at his campus. My mum so terrified and scared and keep asking me to be carefull cz I will take public transportation in Jakarta. Hahahhaha ya I will take BUSWAY. But before that I take BAJAJ, is like TUKTUK in Bangkok…. That was my 1st time takebajaj after almost 4 years never take.. and somemore I took in the city.. quite scary.
Me: bang, how much to go to the nearest busway station?
Bajaj abang: just go up 1st…?
Me: ya but how much( we must deal 1st with the bajaj driver if not they will charge us so expensive.)
Bajaj abang: ya nvm.. u just go up 1st.
Me: hmm okok….( I feel so scared)
Reached the destination
Me; how much ?
Bajaj abang: hmm anything… up to u.. want to give me how much
Me: what???!!!! Ar u sure??
Bajaj abang: hmmm okay then.. after I thinking how near it was…. Its about 2 km. I gave him IDR 6000, its about hmm less than S$ 1 dolaar. Hauhauhuahuahha)
I believe in this cruel world there is still have kind hearted person.
So after that, I took the BUSWAY. And it was so crowded. Got guy a bit want to molest or wat.. by touch purposely my hand… with his small finger somemore, but I just quite, dunt want to see the person and moved. Hahahaha haizz so horror….and finnaly I reached there. I reached ATMAJAYA campus for the 1st time and find” why this campus so dark???” hahahaha
Then I called my fren which is his bestfren…. Then he took me to my bf place… and guessssssssssssssssssss HE SHOCKED!!!! He never think and imagine I can find him till his campus. HE SPEECHLESS… and keep starred at me.. I can feel that he was so happy. So , I told him that I was also bring cake for him….
And he again…. Stoning…. Hahahaha I told him I will go back alone…. By BUSWAY again, but he not allowed me. He asked me to wait for him, and will take his bike to go home. But he knw, that maybe my mum will so terrified if knw I took motorcycle back. So we go back to his house 1st and change to his car. Hahahhahhaha ya.. he went to campus by motorcycle, because is more comfortable and will not trapped on traffic……
At my place, I was still planning to make another surprised… I discussed with my bestfren and she suggest me all those nonsense things. Then I decide to let it go.. see how… hahahahha so when he at my room I told him that I go out to living room a while. On the living room actually I wrote a note to him.
When we went to dinner…. Ya.. I already planning to eat in this new branch PISA CAFÉrestaurant. Cz it is new.. and I knw its quite popular. Then I was thinking on how I put this notes my scenario was:
ask the waitress to put my letter on the bill ( then I was thinking… hmmm impossible…)
when the waitress give us the menu book, I was thinking to put the notes inside the menu and exchange with him. ( errrmmm then I was thinking that … so obvious)
I saw the tissue paper I was thinking to put the notes under the tissue paper.. but how????? So it was soooooo impossible
ok… lettts think ………….. ok….. one more way to do isss…. THROW the notes under his chair… and pretend that saying that this new resto is so dirty. ( when I decided to use this way…. I also look around.. Wondering got ppl see or not. I scared later ppl thot I throw rubbish …. Hahahahhaha so when the behind person who facing our table turn his head… I quickly throw the my notes.
Me: darling.. why this new resto so dirty ya… they never clean properly….
Prince: ha? What u talking? Never…. Never I never see anything under my table..
Me: (zzzzzz) no lha not that side is ur right side of ur chair…. U see lha.. u seee…
Prince: ha? Where.. its nothing.
Me:( I throw the notes really a bit deep inside haha) got lha there….
Prince: oh ok( then he picked up the notes , then give it to me,)
Me: ( give shocking face….) ha? Why this one is for u? so weird..
Prince: ha? Let me see….
Tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
He keep smiling and speechless again… wohooooooo I was success to make him shock on that day… and he keep smiling at me and said” why? Why? Why? It should me the one who do this for u.. not u….. hmmmm but Thankkk you ya… love u….”
Huaaaaaaaaa.. , every time I give surprised to people, I am the one who will cry. I really glad and happy if my plan and surprises turns well . As long they appreciate my effort and say thank you I am already so happy. Means all my effort were not waste.
he keep making this pics....
hahahahahha and i keep laughing... hahahaha
tHIS ONE.... CALZAPONE if i was not wrong..
hahahah its like curry puff huahahhahahha but nice.. only they fold not nice.. i think can fold more pro than them hauhuahuahuhua
THE FETTUCINI DAMN NICE.... NOT SO MILKY.. ARHH I LOVED IT
ps: i just want this relationship work!!!!! i think a lot of them say LD quite hard and really need understanding.... and trust! ya... i trust u my prince.. and u must trust me...... maybe i am a bit naughty... but i knw what i am doing... and what i choose....
for him:
" u already knw me , about me since u knw me, i told everything about myself and u can accept it..... even i already no hope to think to be with u... but in the end u still hold my hand... and ask that questions... that make me speechless and cried... and u thot i will reject u rite..... ??? no i will not, i just dunt want u suffer for what u decide.... as long u can to take the chance and want to be with me.. i will not dissapointed u. "
wohooo. prince took me to have my ICE TELER... ... and found its not far from my place and quite popular... i can see from the customer went there with car... and there is also ppl who eat at the car( i wonder how come they can eat inside the car.. somemore it is chicken noodle... and got soup... haha)
...... he told me that this shop been there long time ago but keep moving and moving. Since kiddo prince also go to this shop to have chicken noodle and it cost him IDR 150 i dunt knw if i convert in Sin dolar became how much...... haha i think less tahn 5 cent.. lol.... but it was on around 1990. haha that time he was around 3-4 years. Found out the place quite nice.... for his typical of street food, quite clean, even we still have to struggling with bugs and flies... but that is the art of food street.
But... dunt worry.. the owner already know about this kind of flies will happen and cannt avoid it... only can ignore by trying to give their best service by...................covered up the drink with plastic.....on top of the glass. lol...
Prince wore my sunglasses.. haha and act cool...... hahaha and he said " wow... quite coool.. haha" ( actually i thot its more looks like GAY.. hahahhahhahhahah)
after fetched my bro to the gym and had es teller, we were back to my place and watched THE HAPPENING......on DVD... hmmm the movie actually quite nice...but found the story a bit zzzzz becauseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee............ they are no real enemies.... only the moving grass , treee, and wind... haizzzz.... so where is the terorist that they always said? hahahah so funny....
not only one dvd but there more.... MEMORY... its thriller psychology movie about sex abuse traumatic..... the plot so slow... but in the end quite shocking..... ( my eyes keep peeping and blinking to ananda everingham.. huaaa sooo handsome....)
Prince back to find his fren in his gamers community.. and i was continue... to watch another THAI movie..... now its time for horor movie..... COMING SOON, i knw it was kinda late for me to watch... but no problem.. i can watch by myself... hahaha alone....actually my bro there, but he played with his computer and put his earphone.. and left me to watch alone.. haizz... but the movie not reallly scary.. it was scary at 1st but after that no more... the shocking part was the ending scene, when the disgusting madwoman looks die.... then suddenly awake and said " you want to see me dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!" huahahahhaha that one was shocking and hilllarious part. i can imagine how shock the people inside the cinema when watched this movie in the cinema, and i bet the shock but after that they laughing.... hauhuauhauhuauaha
COMING SOON.... oh ya.... i still have one more Thai horor movie THE REMAKER... its about karma.... and the other one is THE BOY IN THE STRIPE PAJAMAS.. is western movie... i think quite heavy but interesting because they use the NAZI period to become their setting time of story.... and the story still about how people face the Nazi period......and this movie from the kiddo point of view....it is about the real and true friendship between Jewish and non Jewish...
suddenly i try to clean up all my folder that looks so messy in my lappie..... all those memories suddenly came up... burst in my mind..
the worst part is when i found a file that i save... actually no need for me to save all those hurting memory about me and my 1st ex BF.... huaaa its really hurting....... i just couldn't believed it he can like that to me....from almost 6 years been together, 2 years i had been bluff by him.... huaaaa.... and when i find another file... its about my hope to be together again with him.... he like give me all those promises.....i was sooooo STUPID....
but i just DELETE ALL WOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
YA... NOW...... i am with my prince.... and he will take care of me.... loves me and sayang me.... and hope everything will be okay and works well.... i knw and i am fully aware i will in long distance relationship...but i think i can.... cz i get used to it..even those time i ever had bf not in long distance ... but feel like soooooo longgggg and have gaps.( i will not elaborate about my second ex bf, cz our problem i think not really serious, and i still appreciate him.)
just hope prince will be there with me even we apart .. but our heart will not apart..... i have the feelings for prince.... and i really do... i knw its too sudden and it was too fast.. but i knw what i doing and choose.
loves him....he so cute, funny, keep makes me laugh!..... he gives me a lot of kisses through MSN. FYI, he really sweet and lovely guy.. i am just glad to know and being with him...... ( everytime we like cuddling each other,talk in romantic ways, etc ... we always said that it was not because we are just new couple... but its more like because we have same background of relationship adn i think both of us just lovely also. lo)
so goodbye my past.. and welcome my lovely brighter future.......
Heyloo... it was just a lovely Sunday with Prince.... as usual went out to church with him... hua... i am so happy... why? i think i mentioned before... that i am so glad to know and be with him rite now. Go to church every Sunday is our top priority date schedule . Long back time, i was envy to see all those couple who were attend the service together... but not NOW.... i am also with prince....the feel is not because i attend the service with prince but.... the feel of togetherness in front of God... moreover it is the feel of we have same direction towards what i and him believed. FYI, i was raised by Buddhist believed in my family. but since kid, instead of teaching us about Buddhist, my mum ask my siblings and i to attend service in Christian church with my cousin. when i was in primary school i was schooling under Catholic congregation ( till my high school i was under catholic school) from there i learned all those ritual and customs of catholic religion. Some more my another cousin are pure catholic since kid, so she also often ask me to go to catholic church . Since then, i am choose to go to Catholic , cz i enjoy there....
Deep inside my heart actually i want to get baptist too long time ago.. but my dad not allow me.. and told me perhaps later...see whether my husband in the future catholic or not. hahahhaha cz my parents dunt want us to play with believes... such as keep changing the religion status. As long i still can follow all those tradition Chinese and Buddhist customs and still want to using the joystick... my parents already happy. so, they dunt bother me, whether i am catholic or Buddhist.
if i am thingking more and more about religion, it is just make me a bit blur and confuse. Why? because i knw all religion are good and always bring the positives things. That is why, sumtimes if ppl ask me, what believed i am holding? i will say " i believe in God" hehe ya for me all religions are the same, the difference is just the ritual and the customs that each of the religion hold it.
after the serviced we headed to have dinner with my parents. hahahha prince a bit nervous i guess... hahhhaha.. i forget to bring my cam!!!!!! Prince looks great with his polo tee.... and it is PINK colour.. prince looks handsomeeeee
finished dinner, my bro joined prince car.... and we headed to my grandma house, cz i want to see my aunt there. hahaha i think prince get another nervous feeling part 2. hahahha...
took a pic before i went to church.... ( prince said i am pretty but my top like Salsa dancer..i think because there are a long flary long sleeves thats why he say like that LOL hmm sorry la.. i never bring a lot of outfit to Jakarta, so i'm digging out my mums old closet.. haha)
on Sunday afternoon, i made this small bites.. called RISOLLES. I made two types. One is Rogut fillings that contain of all those fatty ingredients such as flour milk potato carrot and chicken. another ones is ham egg and mayonnaise fillings. huaa it was damn nice....
it was damn nice even prince was also telling me that the rogut was different from the common rogut that he ever eat before.... __________________________________________________________________
Terminator on Saturday nite with Prince and frens..
i think there are 12 ppl included prince and me. hahahhaaha the cinema was full......Found out the film a bit zzzz and there is a mysterious kid , inside the movie. hahah why i said mysterious kid? it was because this kid not really a cameo, but got role in this movie.. but there is no explanation about this kid. Some more this kid with his or her afro hair (i think they create a boy, cz actually this kid is a girl) always in the middle of the action and dangerous scene. hahahahha
this is the afro kid... her real nema is JADAGRACE , i wondering is she Jada Pinket Smith daughter? hahahah with Will Smith? hahaha and guess wahtttt..... YAPS.. its their daughter... hahahha( thx to google lol)
i am wearing prince jacket.. it was nice.. and have a big cover head... hahahhaha Prince a bit shocked inside the cinema when saw me suddenly wearing his coat and put the hoodie also.... ( prince told that i am cute and pretty with hoodie...)
hmm...... i told that i think i more looks like a cartoon.. i M a bit forget but i said it is South Nation......Prince laughed and told me it is SOUTH PARK....... hahahha ya...... it is like one of the character of SOUTH PARK
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