Sing Out Loud

ps for my ex if he read this post: sorry ya... if i talk all abt this... sorry , i just cannt take it anymore...

Early in the morning
I put breakfast at your table
And make sure that your coffee
Has it's sugar and cream
Your eggs are over easy
Your toast done lightly
All that's missing is your morning kiss
That used to greet me

Now you say the juice is sour
It used to be so sweet
And I can't help but to wonder
If you're talking 'bout me
We don't talk the way we used to talk
It's hurtin' so deep
I've got my pride, I will not cry
But it's makin' me weak


I'm not your superwoman
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everything's okay
Boy, I am only human
This girl needs more than occasional
Hugs as a token of love from you to me, ooh, baby


I fought my way through the rush hour
Trying to make it home just for you
I want to make sure that your dinner
Will be waiting for you
But when you get there you just tell me
You're not hungry at all
You said you'd rather read the paper
And you don't want to talk
You like to think that I'm just crazy
When I say that you changed
I'm convinced I know the problem
You don't love me the same
You're just going through the motions
And you're not being fair

I've got my pride, I will not cry
Still I can't help but care
I'm not your superwoman (Oh, no, no)
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everything's okay
Boy, I am only human (I'm only human)
This girl needs more than occasional
Hugs as a token of love from you to me

Karyn White - Superwoman

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Actually its should be a nice Saturday nite with Eranth and Fat.. and other frens also... but end up a bit zzzz, down, upset, and all the bad emotions that i felt on that Saturday nite. i dunno why my ex just make a big fuss and problem because i attend one of his fren birthday party. i was also not planning to stay there for long..... cz we have some other plan also. I just went there to put all the drinks that we brought for the party. i just couldn't understand why he acted like that. If i am the one who make mistake with our relationship, i am the one who should be leaving and shamed to see him and not him who the one who just leaving like that... and dunt care about his fren birthday party.

In the end, i am the one who feel not nice to the birthday boy. Undirectly i ruined their party. HAIZZ....... why arh... i cannt be fren with my ex fren huh? i think when he saw me, he feel like seeing " GHOST" ... hahahhaha somemore, i was in the different partion.. and confirm he couldn't see me.

Fat told me that my ex feel he got betrayed by me.... cz my ex thought that i loved him so much and why suddenly i move on so fast.... and have new bf and maybe he thot that i broke up with him because i got another guy... haiz... open ur mind... plzzz...... i am not that kind of person!!!!!!....

which gf will not upset if the bf cannt answer all the easy questions like

" do u miss me?" ------> " ermmm i dunno.. i AM NUMB rite now..." ( hmm what such a good answer)
" so.. do u love me?"-----> " ermmmm i dunno... i cannt feel anything rite now..."( i think not only now.. but those few months... haizzz)

i knw he is busy and seems self centered person.. who cant be disturb... and i am also not asking for meet-up or wat... if he seems busy.. it was enuf for me to hear that he miss me and still loves me, even he busy. haizzz... that time , the worst thot that i had last time.. i was just looks like calling ger...

arhhhh ... even after broked up , he never seems to contact me or approached me... or take any action...so? must i waiting for him? waiting him for him to wave at me??huh? for how long? somemore he was also told me that he not the type of guy who can ask for patch up... so its useless for me rite...

my conclusion is... i move on or i am not move on.. i get wrong direction and decision...

but i am glad i MOVE ON... i will not repeat my mistake to wait for a guy.. that seems dunt care about me.. about my feelin..... i am just human.. a girll.... that need care and loves....and attention. For what had a bf in the same country.. even in this small country.. SINGAPORE.... but feel that so far far away...... and only think abt himself ....no use....in the end i am the one who also must take care of myself. haaaaaaa.. ok lha i dunt want to elaborate more.. i flashed back , i just feel pain... heart pain.

THANKS to ERANT again.... and Fat.... and Mizzi and hmm who else ya... Alvin...? Fai?? haha that already cheer me up .... oh ya.. in the end... Eranth , me and Wei jiang or Wei jing ha? went to KTV and Sing all OUT Loud... wohooooo..... it was my 1st time went KTV, quite fun.. and interesting.. somemore they have nice snacks. huahahahaha....when i sing SUPERWOMAN.. sudennly i feel weird.... then i was a bit stonning.. when the song almost finished, ERANTH looked at me and say ( next time if go out with Eranth i think make sure everything will be okay.... haha)

" wow.... this song.. hahaha why.. remind me of someone.. hahaha this is really true sia..... this is ur song christine.. hahaha"

hahahaha actually when i was sing in the middle of the song, i already feel that... i think i choose wrong song.. huahahahhahahha

haaaaa.. ok lha nvm.... its okay.... i dunt care what my ex think about me.. really dunt care... time will prove everything... and i will just cherrish all the memories bad and good times when with my ex. No matter what.. he had been there in my heart......

Now i just concentrate with my schooling , my LD bf... that i love so much and too much i think.... for now....hope he will not dissapointed me.. and our relationship is based on TRUST and LOVE. somemore i have another problem about my dad and his works... haizzzz.... and become the oldest child in my family.. i will try to cheer up my dad... cz

i love u Daddyyyyy

Father's day will coming... hua... must thinking on how celebrate it.... confirm my dad will dunt have any idea about this celebration.. even for his birthday which is the date same as me... he doesn't care.... and i am the one who always remind him abt it. hahahaha oh ya.. will thinking abt my bf daddy also... i dunnt have any idea............

anyone can suggest for me? hahahaha

flashback emo-ing

suddenly i try to clean up all my folder that looks so messy in my lappie..... all those memories suddenly came up... burst in my mind..

the worst part is when i found a file that i save... actually no need for me to save all those hurting memory about me and my 1st ex BF.... huaaa its really hurting....... i just couldn't believed it he can like that to me....from almost 6 years been together, 2 years i had been bluff by him.... huaaaa.... and when i find another file... its about my hope to be together again with him.... he like give me all those promises.....i was sooooo STUPID....

but
i just DELETE ALL
WOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

YA... NOW...... i am with my prince.... and he will take care of me.... loves me and sayang me.... and hope everything will be okay and works well.... i knw and i am fully aware i will in long distance relationship...but i think i can.... cz i get used to it..even those time i ever had bf not in long distance ... but feel like soooooo longgggg and have gaps.( i will not elaborate about my second ex bf, cz our problem i think not really serious, and i still appreciate him.)

just hope prince will be there with me even we apart .. but our heart will not apart..... i have the feelings for prince.... and i really do... i knw its too sudden and it was too fast.. but i knw what i doing and choose.

loves him....he so cute, funny, keep makes me laugh!..... he gives me a lot of kisses through MSN. FYI, he really sweet and lovely guy.. i am just glad to know and being with him......
( everytime we like cuddling each other,talk in romantic ways, etc ... we always said that it was not because we are just new couple... but its more like because we have same background of relationship adn i think both of us just lovely also. lo)

so goodbye my past.. and welcome my lovely brighter future.......

my 1st pickpocket!

Never had planned to hit the floor that nite.. but suddenly erant text me asking whether i am free tonite and want to go zouk or not. After i think and think... then i decide to go...somemore its Saturday nite... and i dunt want to be alone.... thx for E and Fat who already ask me to go out.


Graydon never that nite... hope to see hm actually but its okay lha.... in the end,he fetched me . hahaha why? bacause i got PICKPOCKET!!! HUA.. it was my unlucky nite..... i want to have fun and enjoy.... in the end... haiz...... i lost everything....my COACH WRISTLET ITS GONE... HAIZ.... Hope the pickpocket will think that its fake ones, then will returned to me. hahahhaa but i think it is just a dream haha actually i realize when i got this pickpocket, then i suddenly grab my bag, and i still can safe my phone and cam....

i think fat got text him, to tell what happen with me.. but actually i also text him. i never expect or hope he came and fetch me.... deep inside my heart im happy... cz mean he still care of me.
he also helped me to make police report and send me home. ya... like what i said... he really nice and kind guy actually , as long he not grumpy or in the bad mood. hahaha

thx to all fat's and gryadon frens that nite.. aiayahh.. i still couldn't remember the name, i just now mizi.... hahaha cz he acc me and help me bring my sling bag... haha so funny of him... i heard from Erant that he put his ic on my bag.. but i never see it... aiyahhhh it was just a bad day for all. hahaha

after my incident, there are another incident, from what i heard from Erant, Matin gf, got cut on her leg, bcz of glass and somemore Fat have fight with stranger on the club, because this ppl thot that fat keep pushing them. aiyahhh.. its nonsence OKAY??? that nite phuture so crowded....how not to push here and there? it was a disaster day but i want to say

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO FAT!!
IM NOT DRINK ALL OKAY? HAHAI

I like this pic, so funny.... Erant so expressive and fat like suck ing Erant cheeks. hahahaha he like monster...... oh ya.. that nte, i think i still owe fat few bucks...hahahha dunt worry i will return back to u. haha somemore that nite, i keep saying" hua.. why u so kiam siap..... hahahaha" to fat... haha but its true lha... phuture too expensive i think.. and somemore the palce so small. hahaha and the drink too ex.... prefer DBLO 4ever.. lol

had a snacks before club ... PRATA...hahahahaha the teh o ais.. quite nice..... haahhaha, but i dunt think so for the milo.

ps: thx to someone who acc whole nite..... even we in distance..... i think..... it might Be work out. MAYBE... ITS MAYBE... so sorry to make u stay awake till i reached home...

oh ya... i reached home arnd 4 am and ready to work on 8 am... huaahahaha how crazy that was. hahaha....but i must professional... work is work .... work hard party hard and study hard... lol

the next monday... whole day i full of duty..... went to all the bank to make new card.. and also went to school to settle my renewal of student pass... cz my ic was also gone.. lucky for me, i still can go back with referring the letter from my school taht been approve from ICA. phiuh......

thx for salvian to lend me his card.. to purchased my online ticket.... dunt worry bro.. i will pay u soonnn

i will be carefull next time..
ya i will
AGAIN.... THX U GRAYDON...

Heart broken Gateaway

i need more outing with frens.... yes i need!!!!

Its Over!!!

i know its so hard... i dunno its hard for u or for me. But confirm, i am feel so hurt right now

i felt so sad to end our relationship
i still love u deep inside my heart and it is real
i still miss u day by day and hope to see ur text for me
From what we had been going through, i felt so glad that i know you
Maybe it was just not a right time to have this relationship
i still remembered when we were knowing each other....
Being pampered, care and love in the end, and then we just suddenly together after a lot of drama that i had been going through, u were there.... fill my emptiness...

I know u love me, i can feel it ( hope its true:))
but where were u? day by day, i just can feel so far away from u
and i was so sad on how u treat me....

i am just too sensitive and emotional girl... who really need attention to be take care of.
Maybe i asking too much and i feel sorry for it.

i hope we still can be friend. i dunt want loose another GUY friends.... it was just make me heart pain and believe that i really cannt get well with GUYS.
i dunt want to loose contact with u also, i really still want to be there for u, hear ur grumpiness and life story....

i hope u can feel my love for u, cz i really have that feeling for u
i just feel empty when we were apart
but there is no choice for me and for u also ,
i think u just concentrate on what u been doing rite now, and try to be focussed on it.
Dunt make me disappointed k?

Hmm its really make me sad,
everytime i flashed all those beautiful memory. i just can smiling and keep thinking on how to return on those our happiest time.

Hm... i hope u also will doing well, take care of yourself,become less grumpy lol
Hope u will get someone who really can cope with u, loves u and so much better than me..

i still really SAYANG u.....
and
u should believed it.

late posting

Hello.... so long i never blogging.... hmmm it is because im lazy... ya... everytime open the blog i only type nonsence things then i save it. lol i also dunno for what.....

Hmmmm what i did at last week?

- Last Thursday i think, in Indon they got election day. So.... Indonesia have their long long holiday..... election day is holiday, follow with the Good Friday, Saturday and Sunday.....For people who not have the intention or care about this election they came to SINGAPORE... AND SHOPPING... huahahaha

ya, i found a lot of of Indon came to Takashimaya. It was not few but A LOT!!!! I was wondered why they didn't want to participate for this election. For me, it was not because i dunt care about this election, but i dunt get the letter from the embassy, hmmm i think i get it... but i never take , cz they send it to school. lol.. but i think as long is the election not for choosen the president, i will pass it.... but if PRESIDENT election... i will participate it. lol..


- went to church to attend the Good Friday.. church was so crowded... i was late.. stand about 2 hours.... it was raining somemore.... but feel joys cz i can attend the service and fight with my lazyness. After that, went to bf place... he was sick... and i bought liang tea and porridge for him....That day a bit emotic day for me... hua.. i dunt want to elaborate more, but i just hope he get well soon and all his stressing and hectic works will end soon, SO I CAN GET MY BABY BACK!!!!

- Weekend , just catched up movie " KNOWING" with bf...
The movie was not like wat i expected! sigh...i thot the movie was like Da vinci code( even that movie was also not nice lol) but in the end... Gosh... overall the story was IT IS THE END OF THE WORLD.... and the stupid 3D like made the movie seems a bit fake. but i dunno why, i was a bit sad , when watched the father apart from the son... hua... so sad... and suddenly my tears dropped. haha i really can feel it.....

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This week i never work at Taka.... i dedicated myself to work to help my aunt.. home office home and office.... hahaha a lot of shipment coming. i knw it looks like i work for my auntie is free.. no salary.. but i knw my aunt so kind to me...... hahahaha so no need to tell u how much i get it.. as long i am happy and she also happy... everything will be okay and happy also. lol

today, my aunt husband came and took the goods, my office uncle ask me to go out with them to have lunch together.. arhh i lazy..... my sis and bro at home somemore, they havent eat.. and i just did my groceries.... so better i cooked!!! and tadahhh my cooking for today

MY COOKING FOR TODAY... wEDNESDAY....

FUZHOU FISHBALL AND SAUSAGES SOUP
FRIED SWEET TEMPE AND TOFU
SALT VEGGIE MIX WITH EGG AND IKAN BILIS
( this salt veggie is not salty at all and it was leftover since Saturday or Friday.... but i put in fridge.. and the result after i mix it.. and cooked it.... turned SO NICEEEEEEEEEEE)

Yihaaaa my rice for today was successss !!!!!
amitofo!!! lol

my uncle comin after had their lunch with my office uncle... and they brought me pek cam kee... huaaa all is meat!!! flesh!!!! breast somemore!!!!! and when i taste it... huaaa so nice... it burst into ur mouth!!!!! huaaaa so nice...
hmmm i think i will keep for my sis and bro dinner later... cz i will go out meet a client to deliver her goods at Orchard...

i am thinking whether i go to India or Melbroune this coming May... huaaaa but i feel lazy to make the visa.... somemore a lot of things that must be prepared for applying Australian visa. hmmm how? India? or Australia?

Monday blues...

HALOO MONDAY!!!


I'M HERE..... READY TO FACE THE 1ST DAY OF THE WEEK....

WOHOOO

Hmm actually today i want to work at Taka like used to... but not managed. Not only because they "pretend" no need ppl but i also actually got sumthin on. if i am not working at Taka, i will work at home, and settle my aunt stuff.... go the office take the goods and maybe pay the bill and etc.

Today.... i went to 3 Bank in one shoott..... LOL.... Maybank.. POSB, and OCBC... transfer money, withdrawl, deposit, open cheque book... huahuahua... and guess wat? all is not my Money!!!! hiks hiks

actually even only went to those bank... it was quite tiring..... it was because , today is Monday.... and confirm..... bank will have a lot ppl. and yap! exactly! when i went to Maybank.... i took the que number.. and my number was 140 and i saw the service plat number.. guess? what number? 125!!!!! 125! OMG! AND IT IS SO LONG...... but it was okay... cz all the bank is nearby my place... so no worries... and somemore i knw Singapore bank is the fastest service i ever had comparing when i was in Jakarta.

in Jakarta u will find the bank a bit lousy... hmm not all but some of them. Somemore this bank is quite big and popular..( lets say it is similar like POSB in Singapore, where we can find any ATM anywhere. ) The bank that i mention above gave me such a SUCKS service..... why? because.... arhhhh i lazy to mention it... but overalll the service is not good.... hmmm, that time i want to make my atm card... i proceed like normal, take the que number and etc... my mom and i... found that why the que so long..... somemore no seats... only few seats there ( we were not go to the teller but the customer service sections) then my mom( haha ya my mom so kepo and impatient type) asked the security man why nobody in the customer service sections. Only one people served all the customers.

mom: " sir.. why no one at their seats? where all the customer service people go? they go lunch break ?"

security: " hmmm i also dunno.. but what i've heard is one person is absent.... take her MC... then the one who replace this person suddenly also not coming..... so no choice .."

mom;" walauuu eeee... why can like that ones... can not lhaaa sir.. cannt...... nowadays where got such kind of things , then no one replace this person... aiyoo..already in recession but still like that sir... huh!?"

security:" hahaha... no choice mam.."

mom" tin , lets go.... we just go other day ..... waste our time...huh! see ya.... i will go complain"

while in the car, my mum directly call the headquarters of the bank... to tell about this issue... haha my mum brave ones.... that time she also call the headquarters to ask about her overall letter....( that time we were proceed to make visa to go Australia) the result was actually the letter is already in the branch, but just the bank branch kinda hold it... and dunt want to check whether there is a mail or not. haha so funny rite?

my outfit! hua... i like this T shirt
can u see the naked lady on my T shirt?

i just wondering when i can be slimmer???? LOL

i still got my fever, and my running nose become worst! plus i have stupid voice.... i dunt like getting sick... but i think my body already in the limit.... but no matter how i am sick.. i will keep be active and not enjoying my sickness.... then next time my immune will be stronger then today.

PS:

WOHOOO.... helping my bf to translate some german words.... its on computer"" term.... and guess wat...... i was correct.... haha actually i just a bit guessing.... its quite easy actually, because many German term are similar in English term.
i think my fever a bit okay..... Vicks help me so much! thank you:p

GUTE NACHT!!!!

fever sore throat i hate it

slack at home whole day... hmm actually no. i must go office to settle some stuff and carried out to my place.. ya.. and it was so heavy total 12 kg.... hahahaha ppl stare at me when i bring the things .... hahaha why ppl just only can stare instead of ask whether i need helping hand or not. LOL... but it was okay... im strong woman.. independent woman... must can do evrything by my own.... even i have bf also i must be independent..LOL



becoming a woman is not easy... ya... i think i prefer to become a guy.. which is have stone and hard feeling..... not like me, woman who have weak and emotional feeling.... ya , i can tell u in utside i am a strong and independent person, but inside im so weak....need care and attention..... huaaa so emotional feeling....sometimes i wonder that i dunt believe in any kind of relationship status.... it was just make me headache... but i need it.... need to feel secure and attention... someone that i can rely on... but in the end it is also me who the one must take care of them. i will not feel any regret or wth it is... as long i can make someone happy... and it will make me turn pissed off if someone not appreciate my effort or wth it is..... i never ask anything ..... never ask anything that so weird or wth it is.... i just need attention caring and appreciation. thats all... dunt say me im so complicated... because i am simple person...

hmm... i dunno why i suddenly i feel weak this week... it turns make me got fever.. OMG.. i dunt like it... i hate it! i hate when my nose watery..... cannt breath properly... cannt swallow cz throat painfulll.. hua... i think because this past few days i had been crying and my body feel so exhausted... and my immune system turns to be so bad...

but i kinda feel want to drink.. hahaha why? because drink make me forget of anything that make me pissed off... who want to acc me drink? lol..but i dunt want to drink... later my stomach getting bigger and bigger... lol....

i cannt eat anything , but i feel to have beancurd and grassjelly and of courseee PIZZA.. goshh i have been wait to eat pizza so long..... i want to order but.... hmmm i want to eat at TIMBRE... hahaha dunno why.... i just want to eat pizza... beancurd and grass jelly....

received this bodyshop member card... 10 percent discount... yes! but i seldom buy body shop ... haha so if anyone want to buy bodyshop stuff just tell me.... pm me... lol...

ps:

why i keep using LOL? hahaha it was because someone used to write LOL..... and im sooo zzzzzzzzz with LOL.... hahaha but i think LOL better than hahaha or hehehe, can save space when write text or msg... lol.. :p
Next week i think i will work almost everyday... woish me luckk.. im planning to go india and australia... lol.. OMG IM USING lol AGAIN..... LOL
hOPE BF WILL TREAT ME WELL THAN B4... I KNW I CANNT DISTURB HIM WHEN WEEKDAYS... but hope can meet up at least one or two times a week...
i think i will eat beancurd and grassjelly everyday next week... lol... gosh lol again... i dunt want to keep vomit... tiredddddddddd.... tiredd.. no..im not bulimic okay..... LOL...

just a little

i dunno where is my heart now...
what i feel....
i just need someone who can cheer me up
hmmm
will there be someone who can understand what i want,
someone who know what i needs
someone who know what i like
someone who can listen about my story
someone who can listen about my day
someone who can cope with my stress and problem
someone who will be there for me when i need a shoulder to cry on?


i just tired and need space and time for myself....
i knw about u. mostly everything.... but do u knw about me?
i just need a little free space from ur self space.... just little...
im not asking of anything.
i just asking for ur care , attention nad again... free time and space in ur heart.

i dunt want to cry.. no more
i dunt want to be sad, no more
i dunt want to be emo, no more
i dunt want to be sensitive , no more
i just want u to understand me and pampered me
with ur heart mind and soul... just a little....

Just a little care will do for me
and
i will say thank you

i am not RICH

:> my dearling

What i had been doing these few days ago. till i was a bit so tired.... to bought this belt from Domanchi.... for my dearling.. it was the present from me........somemore during my classes 2 weeks ago , i keep see around all the shop that selling belt... and i found this one! yey... i knw... he will like it.... hmmm actually i knw he want to have new wallet... but i dunno how to choose.... hehe
( just dunt say all those nonsence things that can make me DIS--- hmmm all disconnection.. disappointed... and many more dis......i work i earn and i knw how to spend and save my bucks...i think u knw what im trying to say.)

SHOOT THE ZOMBIES.....

hahaha try to play left4dead.. after watched Street Fighter .... hmm not really nice ... but still okay.i just like to see Chun li face... haha pretty
1st time play i cannt take it.. so confusing... but i think nw im so much better.... i can save my team and my dearling.... hahahaha so much fun.... but so fast to get bored also.. hehe

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Yippiieeee got this external harddisk from my dearling.... hmm actually i asked him to help me buy during the IT fair... cz im working..... it is 320 gb cost 109 bucks.... and i want to repay my dearling...but he said.... no need. really meh? hahahaha but i feel not nice..... i think i will pay half.... ok?i want the red ones... but no more.......... huhuhuhuhuuhuhuhuhu.. during IT fair..dearling shopped quite a lot....hmmm

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Long time never camwhoring......
hahaha no time no time.. no time...

( i feel like getting fatter and fatter... huaaaa i think i must on diet... MUST!)

I feel like try to control my hunger... and hope i can have my pizza on weekend............ huaa really craving for pizza....
dunno why..
i just want to eat.. pizza...... pizzaaaa.. pizza.....

Happy 5th month's Dearling

Happy 5th months Anniversary's dear..... hmmmm i knw its kinda late... its should be yesterday i post this out... but im too tired these couple days.... busying with work...... IM SO EXHAUSTED!!!! i really a bit sad i cannt prepared anything for this aniv... a bit lost with the idea... but i already prepared since 2 weeks ago.... .... hmmm i hope he will like it.

this month my aniv is really kinda so sad.... ya.. its so sad but also quite happy.... i read all my friends blog... with their aniv bash... quite envy.... but im okay.... cz im happy too..... dearling finnaly text me... when i was sleeping...( ya, ytd i slept so early..)

12/34 am 180309

"Happy together day darling..i love u evens in urs and my dreams ! Goodnitez..."

ya, its short and simple but i like it....

thought that he will never greet me...hehe hmmm i just hope evrything will be better and better... even now like a lot of problems come....just hope we can settle it.....

But this aniv really so blues... for me..... i decide to work..... ya.. i knw... if i work... means i will so tired.... and most likely will never see my dearling... i was planning and have thoughts to come to his place... but these few days seems so tired for me... feel i can cry.....my legs so tired, my shin also... damn pain!

In the end... ya , never meet my dearling today... which was yesterday.... i just stayed home... watching show... was sleeping a while... then phoning with him... feel want to cryy.... tears was almost come out... feel like hua... " we are in the same country... small country some more.. but we only meet 1 or days a week.... " Crazyyyyyy...

Again,
Happy Anniversary's Dearling
i love u
more and more...
huaaaa
now i really saddddddddddddddddddd

how it feels like???

When u find out someone that had been in ur life hmmm such as ur ex-gf or bf find their new bf/gf? hmmm what it feels like?

Here is my thot wbout what i will feels like:

1. FEEL SO JEALOUS

wHY? of course the jealous feeling will appear suddenly, unexpectedly and continously, until we can accept the fact that he/ she already with someone else.

2. FEEL SO SAD

why? actually we no need to feel sad, if in the other hand we also already have our new relationship with other and it is better. But those sad feeling will just naturally appeared. Feel sad that we feel that we don;t want to admit it and keep thinking about it and in the end, we end up with or stress....

3. FEEL SO COMPETING

why? We feel that we want to know , with whom, how it is looks like, how far their relationshio, we just want to think and feel that we are superior that he/ she. We do not want to loose with his/ her new relationship and we also still think that we are better and the best. But how if he / she really better than us? only one worst that i can think of" COMPETE"

yA, i will secretly to compete and upgrade myself to become better hope someone can feel those regret feeling because we are moreeeeee good than his/ her new gf/ bf.. haha so evilllllll haha

4. FEEL SO BROKENHEARTED

Actually its is quite funny. What is the reason for being so broken hearted if we also have our new lovely and better relationship than before?

hahaha i think it is because we are human and we just always feel not enough and selfish. But thise feeling , the heart pain will not go away... Maybe, we feel so brokenhearted becayse feep inside our hearts, we still have that feeling.... Even it is only 0.0001% but still, we still have that" FEELING"

the last feeling that will occur is....

5. FEEL WANT TO DISTRACT AND TO RUIN THEIR REALTIONSHIP!!!


hUAhahahahaha it feels so crazy and so bad... it is selfish and crazy. But i think all of u that have this kind of experience will agree with me. hahaha

in conclusion..... the process that we will feel is will be like this:

we know--> he/she ----> new gf/bf---> u feel so sad---> curious---> investigate it----> finding the truth---> conclusion-----> dunt want to admit it---> become evil--->
try to SEPARATE them.

HAHAHHAHHAHHAA

IT IS JUST SO " EVIL" hmmmm maybe if it is better if the conclusion is

" we happy about it cherish it and hope their new relation ship is better and they will be happy"

it is just so angelic thinking like that ... it will need so brave heart to admit it.

So, which one u will choose, become evil or angel?

i think,for myself i will chooseeee hmmmmmm

it is SECRET!!!

HAHAHA


SECRET

late-post of emo-ing

School started on Last Wed. Unexpectedly, on that day i was also have my part time job. so... 8am i am in Taka and by 2 pm i left Taka to Dhouby Ghout to attend my 1st class , then 6pm went back to Taka again to continue my work till it closed at 10pm. hmm how tired it was!

i know this is kinda so late post... but a lot things happened so i lazy to post it. example, had emo-ing session with my bf and i think it was just because im so tired and stress. i felt that i dunt have enough time for my own life and dedicated take care of others.

it was already several days i couldn't sleep properly.. maybe thats why im so exhausted. i have a really scary nightmare that happend continuously. Dreamt that i keep vomiting and what i vomit is all BLOOD and have like veins come out from my mouth. hua..so scary....

i AM SO SORRY FOR MY BF THAT ALWAYS " KENA" MY STRESS AND EMO-ING SESSIONS.

he is the one and only victim that i can think of it. hahaha somemore he keep told me to bring me to see mental doctor, to examine my mental condition. huahahaha for what? hahaha i think he also must go there to examine himself and his anger management. ha ha ha


Last weekend im sort of ruin my Saturday nite dating wit my bf.. hmm so sorry about that... i just dunt like.....( ya ya ya will not give any further explanation and story) i just cannt control my emotion and tears... huaaa tired .... why this things keep happened. but in the end we managed to watch PUSH!!!! at night.. IT IS QUITE NICE MOVIE... dakota fanning was one of the main cast!... and she is the watchers... the one who can see the future... this movie remained me of HEROES tv shows... but the main plot or the main idea of this movie is not really strong... feel a bit not interesting.... the interesting parts just the when all the cast were showing their ability.... their power...




Finished movie... we went back.. walked.. till my place.... i like when we walk like that.... i just cannt describe the feeling... we stopped to buy beancurd near the Selegie rd..... dearling bought for me 2 packet of beancurd... and 1 packet of quiling gao jelly... ( planning to give my sis eat... but in the end i ate allll... hahhahahahhahahhahaha the BEANCURD NICE!!!!! NICE!!!! NICE!!!!! even it already keep in the fridge 2 days also still nice... hmmm nice... i like.. now left the jelly... hahaha)

we walked , and talked.... and suddenly he send sms ( i think) to know the 4D result... hahaha and suddenly smile and abit laugh.... and ask me , whether i really bought for him the 4D....

Ya... i bought 1101... on Saturday 2 big 2 small.... and it is STRIKE... hahahaha



my dearling is so lucky.. ohh dunt forget.. im also involve on that 4d OK? it was because of me.. then, he can strike it... hahahahaha ( ok dearling? put me in ur lucky charm ok? haha)

hmmm overall i just feel like i am such a lousy gf! dunno how to become a good gf... so sad....

ps: was waiting for dearling to reach his place till 3 am... haha somemore i have mywork on 8am... hahaha ya.. in the end .... i sleep around 4am.. hahaha even dearling told me not to wait for him.. but im worried.... hmmm suddenly after all the a bit EMO-ing sms along his way to reach home... he told me that i was pretty ( i wore so purplish on my saturday nite haha) and also when i wore the white ones..... which is i dunno what he means... i thinkkk it is when i wore this dress.. hahaha






hahahha ok enough for pics of my self... now it turns for my newwww toys... haha blackberyyyy freeeeeeeeeeeee from my aunt.,... she let me to use the blackberry.. but the cheapest ones... cz bold and the other type is so expensive.. haha( no need to give me the expensive ones is also alrite... haha i will apreciate what she will give me to use it.. haha such as her Prada wallet, Prada bag... MIUMIU clothes... hahaha like all branded.. le..... but im seldom using it also, i havent have those feel being Branded girl... haha i am just a girl next door and i like ethnic and traditional stuffs more) huaaa so excited... but i dunno how to use it... so i just keep it 1st.. hmm actually im waiting for my cousin to bring the silicon case.... to protect the blackberyy.. cz i feel it is so Fragile hahaha

i think it is 8320 series.. somemore one of my classmates also using this type of blackberry.. haha.. i think must learn from her.. haha

btw i received my name tag.. finally.. goodbye to all those fake name tag.. and welcome my real name tag.... huaaaaa so happy.. hahaha thx uuuuuuuu

Tired and i miss u

WANTED!!!!!


IF ANYONE SEE THIS WANTED PERSON , PLZ LET ME KNOW!!! ASAP!!!!!

cz I MISSS HIM SO:(

HUA.... i hope in the future i will get my real own name card... hahahaha


I love i love i love it

Spend these few days with school, working, and Project-ing... MAKE ME MAD........ AND I GAIN 1 PIMPLE ALREADY............................... huahuahua i hate if i got P.I.M.P.L.E , FEEL BAD MOOD!!!
hmmm these 2 days i spent my night with Irene... doing the project! hua.. so tiring.. but i think we done everything.... thx u for all the effort that irene and the REST...put to make this project DONE!!!! THX FOR MY BELOVED BROTHER ALSO, who help me do the animation... hua... feel want to cry liao.



Me and Irene.....HAN NING..( she ate my cooking.... and said that it was so nice.. then suddenly she said" christine.. christine... i want to get MARRIED WITH U.... u can be the good Housewife...." hahahhaha U SO SCARED ME....)

THX u irene for ur effort and ur patient to make this project happen THX u Wilson, to help us about this project..( u older mah... have experience.... haha somemore u ar working for SONY ( marketing) hua....can i get discount? if buy through u?? haha)

THX u Jacelyn for your fast action, to doing the competitive analysist.... even it is last minutes by THX U THX U THX U

THX u Fransiska for help us to make it all this project done... thx u thx u.

THX u for my beloved Dearie..... who... ( hmmmm wat hor.... hmmm u make me sad these past few days le.... hahaha so...... thx u lo... haha JOKING lha.. dunt be so sensitive..... THX U FOR SUPPORT ME.. AND I WANT TO MEET U SOONNNNNNN)!!!!!

THX U AGAIN FOR MY bROTHERRRRRRRRRRRRR THX U..... NOw i want to learn about all the animation .... hua I want... i KEEN on... haha

mY bROTHER...


NEED TO GO TO SCHOOL immediately..to make sure everything is OKAY.... C Y

Im not Emo-ing

This post dedicated for my SUNSHINE,

To dearest SUNSHINE:

1. i'm not emo-ing.... I AM NOT!!!! okay??? just to let u knw, abt myself more and more. so u can knw me better. if i sounds silly or scared that we seems like no have time to meet, it is bcz our activities so Hectic and sumtimes Stessfull, and in the end only left the tired feeling.
2. if i said if mostly couples using their weekend day for their dating, it is true rite? and comparing with us, it is like so UNfair.... but no choice for us. But dunt worry lha, like u said also. shuld be there is lha.. will can meet ones.. haha ( why im so scared huh, also my dear not go anywhere... the further maybe go Swimming poools to have TANNNING skin.. or maybe go to Thailand.. even there still CHAOS and RIOT, in order to get the STINGRAY WALLLET!! HAHA//// muachmuach.. u so cute)
   
3. just let u knw only, make sure u not regret and dis pointed in the end.
   

i will not stress and put a lof of pressure for our relation ship. i will not. and just like wat u said to me to be just n natural and normal. haha YA... this is already so natural way of me... haha

Hm..... haha i accidentally sleeping again when post this blog. haha... tml which is today.. MONDAY the 1st December 2008 i will start my schooling time... hmmmm
miss to be on the classroom but in the other hand also will missing my part time job. haha... today got ppl asked me to apply to takashimaya office, to get the interview's. Hm.... i knw it is sound so nice and will have a lot of salary ones, but there is sumthin that really cannnt tells ones. haha so i just stick with this company 1st. haha

i want to blog a lot a lot of things but my eyes cannt resist anymore.. so sleepy.... tml will be so quite long day,. After schooling then meet noni to go priska house, to acc her. hER BF MOVED to Hongkong LIAO.. SO SHE ALONE..hua.. dunt worry dear... im here... but somemore must go to VIVO to take the things from my mums, through my friends mum. they are coming tml noon. HMMMM so busy rite? huaaaaaaaaa.. i dunt knw how tml would be. so lets see....

my Birthday coming up soon... Hmmm a lot of things that i want to have and want to buy for give my self a presents. haha sound so stupid!!! sillly,,,,,( u see dear.. silly...) but sounds so silly give myself a birthday presents . haha....Haiz...duuno also wat i will to do for my birthday.. i think nothin to do.. or maybe IF IM CRAZY then i just go to work..... haha

oklha i will stop this post, cz if not i will talk nonsense, and in the end my sunshine will said im EMO-ing............. HAHA....

Saturday blues...

i want to have HOLIDAY.....



taken from my bff facebook.. haha " for ake, this is when u have ur 1st honeymoon trip.. hmm i think somewhere arnd peninsula , melb. there. haha"

Picsssss from the flag book shoot...by Steffi

( want to upload the expressions ones, but so much.. lazy to adobe, haha)

ok i knw this post will not colorful haha cz im LAZY!!!!!

Hm.......when the rest of couples cuddling each other, hand in hand, watch movie, windows shopping ,coffee-ing, tea-ing, supper-ing together on SATURDAY nite... me and him? WORKING!!! and coulnd't meet each other... haha just stay at our own space and room and do our own things. haha ( but still texting and phoning... haha... but still made my Saturday become saturday blues.. HAHA... joking only lha... haha even we not meet u still thinking of me, so it is enuf , better then not. haha i knw u will replay " silly ger"")

so tired these few days... dunno why..maybe i already feel bored of my daily activity, which is spend my half days and sometimes whole day at TAKASHIMAYA. haha feel like want to get away from there, and find other place to hangout or maybe windows shopping. haha but i still want to work at Taka. The work environment there so nice and comfort. Firstly, i thought work there, i will make new friends with middle age woman, guy, until the old uncle and aunties. Yap! it is true and fact. There are some of the youngster also. that seems every time try to look up to my stall. I dunno why.. the only i can do just SMILE. haha. Its glad to knw that everyone is concern and treat me nice rite there.

MOstly, the aunties who work there thought that i am 16-18 years old. haha alamak... so YOUNG!!! i also want, but the true is im over 20. haha and they SHOCK!!!! haha auntie from OMU rice shop, also thot that i am 17 years old, and when i told her, that i am over 20, she doesnt believed it. 2 days ago somemore, this OMU rice auntie, keep touching and pinch my cheeks and chin. haha she said that im so CUTE.... and Pretty... " Hen Khe Ai, Hen Phiao Liang" haha i dunt knw i spell it correct or wrong. haha Then? i just stoning and blurry... haha but she said if i want to eat the omu rice just go there and asked. not only Omu rice shop but the KOno Pizza shop also. haha ask me to go there and just asked . FREE. hmmm too bad for me , dunno when i will eat the OMU rice and Kono Pizza. HAHA cz im not really take rice thats why feel will be wasted. and the kono pizza, its so oily and FATTENIng. scared to eat it. haha BUT a loTTA THANK you FOR ME TO all of the ppl who work there. from the celaning service until the manager or supervisor, who handle the Taka treat me so well and friendly.

But, It will ending soon.... hiks... im so sad.... December will start schooling, no time to work, but i agree to work from 6-8 Dec to replace the kakak. hua.. which is.... i will work whole day long, and somemore during those days, Takashimaya will be open till 10.30. hua..... and it will be weekend!!! DIE DIE DIE sure die one... but i must me STRONG..... haha im not superwoman but i am WONNDERRR WOMAN ... haha like today, i must handle the customer by myself... and so crowded somemore. i can faint!!!

ya... these couple of days, i feel bored and tired. maybe not enuf sleep. i feel that arnd 3 plus i will sure get dizzy and feel want to collapse.. haha... i knw later they also will not pity me, cz it is my fault not eating. haha IM EATING... but not so much, cz i feel better i used the break time TO TAKE A NAP, even just fr 45 min. haha hua... but i try to keep smiling and served the customer in a good way.

Hua i most fall asleep just NOW!!! HAHA Hm... now alreadu almost 2 am. i havent shower yet. i knw my LOVER( u see dear.... i change the " hubby" to " LOVER" like wat u asked me to write. haha PAISEH le....... but i think my blog also no one read so it ok. haha)
Why i havent showeR yet? hmmm instead of my laziness because i still have his smell on my cloths! haha DUNT THINK about sumthin FAR.. MATURED , or SEXUAL orientation. haha WHY? cz all is wrong!!! the truth is... i have his smell bcz our perfume the smell is SAME!!! haha so better not waste it... haha im also wll sleeping soon, even i just woke up around 11pm but i still feel sleepy... haha, i think i will just bathing tmr... haha to late already later got RHEUMATIC.. haha

This is STINGRAY skin wallet.. hmmm what can i say? haha i knw it is so interesting but STINGRAY? haha anyway.... my BF like it and want to buy it. haha i search online, and only can find at e-bay, and cheaper. haha i think his style and my style so diff.. so who will ADJUST? haha the answer is NO ONE!!!! haha just be ourself... cz the different can be the harmony and melody.. haha wth... haha

see how the diffrent style of him and my style... ,the stingray wallet have the .. hmm like red zebra ornament... and me just the classic and nothing special ornament A.K.A so COMMON... haha

hmm must wake up arnd 8 am then back to work again . today is THE LAST DAY!!! ahahhahaha i will miss all the ppl there.... haha but i miss my LOVER more... haha but THIS SUNDAY, he also will working. huaaaaa . i think both of us so BUSY!!!! haha duunno when me and him can really have time together, without thinking about working stuff." TML u working?"" what time u work " " What time u finished" haha all is the common chat between me and him. haha He ALSO want me to post abt him!!!! haha And post his photo. haha ya i will see, IF there is nice and the ugly pics or not. then i will compare it. NIce which means, short hair and seems to be... hmm not ugly. and is there any other words to subtitute the UGLY word,.... haha how about MESSY.. or hmmmm NOT SO UGLY and NOT SO NICE? haha muachmuach.... confirm when he read my blog he will said " SILLY GER.."


HAHHAHAHAHAHa

ok lha gtg to sleep and just bath in the morning.. haha hope im not lazy too haha

ps: hua.. hope my itchiness will recover soon. i think i got allergic or bite by some insect. but why only the left side that itchy? haha weird....